I'm not better, but its at least enough to say this. I talked to my father the first time for more than 5 minutes in years. And I felt broken I learned I lost the connection to my mates.. Cimon might not be able to mend that break, but I gave up fighting. I feel like I lost a piece of me, I feel like I gave what was left of my hope to Cimon. I feel all I have left to cling to is my mother or Kura.. I'm grateful I could keep him at least in a way with me..