It's funny. You know, how the same one or two problems can give someone the most grief?
Some may look at this and scoff or whatever, I don't care. A few scoffs is nothing compared to the ache within me.
The problem isn't that I'm alone, It's that i'm lonely. They're two completely different things.
I mean, I was having fun at work, singing along with the radio and all, but as soon as I leave, It hits me, bringing down my whole day.
What does it take not to be lonley? Is it because I don't want to conform?
Is it the price I pay for being myself?
Is it worth it?
Someone...Please, help me...
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I get 2 days where I talk to friends. Thursday. For about 4 hours. Then I go home. And Friday. When I stay over at a friend's house. THen I have Saturday-Thursday once again to be lonely, and become depressed. I go through this cycle, all the time, always have, always will.
Sure I got school in a couple months but...well...I don't get along with anyone at school most of the time. Maybe 1% of the time i'm not fighting or getting my feelings hurt or being thrown into a locker.
I just live with being lonley. Because I refuse to conform completely to be like a prep or something. When I turn 18 I betcha anything most everyone I know will never talk to me again. Because then i'll be who I want to be dress how I want to dress and get hte peircings I want to have.
Its' the price I pay. Lonleyness for being who I want to be...