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July 22, 2013 note

Your faith in humanity… scorpion and frog story
“Any sinister enemy…always starts by trying to become your friend.”

July 25:

Greed = undisciplined

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-searches up the full reference for the entry-

A scorpion and a frog meet on the bank of a stream and the scorpion asks the frog to carry him across on its back. The frog asks, “How do I know you won’t sting me?” The scorpion says, “Because if I do, I will die too.”

The frog is satisfied, and they set out. But in midstream, the scorpion stings the frog. The frog feels the onset of paralysis and starts to sink, knowing they both will drown, but has just enough time to gasp “Why?”

Replies the scorpion: “It’s my nature…”

[...Creepyyyy



If that were to happen to me, let's see. I probably knew, but I still wanted to believe in the person, and seem innocent, then run away at the first sign of danger. But wow. Okay, there is a difference! Like when a good person is a big jerk says "you think I'm a jerk." The other person says, "You behave like a jerk. There is a difference." You know, see if the scorpion is looking at you before it stings you and swim away.

...Actually, it is right there. "It is in my nature."
Only a person who had mental challenges would disregard that.
Even I don't underestimate Kyoya. We, rather.



I have always known what kind of person he is. To me, it seems like he was holding something back. I didn't know what it was but I could tell there was something. From the way he speaks, at any time, I could see it. I didn't understand why he wasn't open. It didn't seem to make him very happy? If it weren't for him being unrestrained around his friends (eg: me), I would say, if I were a stranger saying hi for the first time, I can tell. I don't have to watch the anime or know background to hear his tone of voice and I'm insightful, despite my obliviousness sometimes.



I know what Kyoya is capable of. Not just from being his best friend in roleplay and being his second best friend, but just from knowing who he is. He's scary, manipulative, dishonest, greedy, powerful, cunning. He's the Devil when he irritably wakes up. He's the Second Demon, with Bossa Nova-kun being first. He will sell you alive if he doesn't have a use for you. He has three bodyguards that defend him which means he could have enemies and he has an entire police force as his command like a tyrant's army. The man is capable of dark dark things (tears icon to show seriousness) and the reason no one speaks about this is because he finds some way to shut them up.



-does this pose when he's anxious/serious- He ties people up (gets bodyguards to do that) and leaves them hanging up in department stores for revenge. What kind of person does that!? He's cold like Asahikawa and is a betrayer, leaving Tamaki and I alone pinned to a wall or arrow-stabbed. If he doesn't have a use for you, he'll compost you so then he can further use you. He definitely has no scruples. -comically fearful-


-wasn't even making strong points/examples like he had wanted to- (it's partly due to guilt)

...And that is I dislike it when people put "my" best friend on a pedestal.



(I apologize. I was rambling so my argument wasn't even strong. It's supposed to sound blunt and accidentally insulting gonk like happens. I accidentally insult him ;;;;;; without meaning to. Kyoya and I have already reached a point where, without even trying, we're accidentally canon on our own and together, compatible when we talk. Some roleplayers' characters won't have a good roleplay friendship but we're lucky to have found each other out of all the other versions/copies. We always improvise when we talk. We bother or calmly talk to each other accordingly!)


Aug 16, 2013, in the club room:

"Did you know someone thinks "Tamaki is a king but Kyoya is God"? Keh, yeah. God of Death. God of Darkness. God of Evil Spirits Everywhere Combined into a Single Entity. No...I mean, how could they think that!? See, this is why it's good we have this understanding that Tamaki is/I am a good person and club leader. Otherwise, we get misunderstood and unappreciated by the guests and the cast ;;;. Sad. We don't get the appreciation we deserve. Which would then encourage girls to think too positively of Kyoya because it's "true" and their "eyes don't lie" that Kyoya is the best Vice-President and should be President</3
Back to Kami-sama talk. Lies. Exaggerated exaggerated, brought-on-by-fangirls-feelings, liiiiiieeeeesss. Everything you touch doesn't turn into yen, Kyoya. If it did, that's...awful. Satisfying your twisted greed isn't safe!! -hands palms under chin- Everything you touch turns into dust, figuratively speaking, I think, and good business profits...!!

(@all: sorry. I hate it when people put him on a pedestal. It's wrong unless he's petrified from Medusa or himself via a mirror. It's our job to slam him down 8D because he's "scum." I mean both things in a good way! I don't know if that makes sense. If you accept Kyoya for who he is, meaning his negative traits, insulting Kyoya = praising. Well, not praising. No one should ever encourage your activities and get you to spawn your offspring to do the same or the world is in possible danger. Insulting = support? It's not really insulting... It's the "friendship with Kyoya" equivalent of someone saying their crush is "nice, loyal, sweet..." and they lists traits or things the person does that they like, except platonically and with Kyoya's negative traits instead. Sadly, my insults are full of love and good intent -dryly stares over at Kyoya- and yours are absolutely harmful. You have no scruples.)"

Kyoya-mun: "[Kyouya is not a deity! Power/money-hungry? Yes. Deity? No. I personally don't like it when people put him on a pedestal for the wrong reasons. ;(]"

"[Yes, finally!]"

Kyoya is a good guy. Don't get me wrong. Remember who is speaking; I understand my best friend the most. I just don't like it when people don't understand my best friend and still like him. I want his future girlfriend to accept him for who he is and to like his negative traits too because that is what makes Kyoya himself.

When I bring attention to his traits, it's because I want people to understand him then like him. I can't just sit by and not do anything while I watch this happen. I know it's unnecessary and accidentally canon, but I just...I don't want that to happen. As much as I complain, that is just it. Empty words that mean nothing. To get my anger out instead of keeping it in. He's interesting and annoying. I'm not slandering him; I'm explaining what I accept about him. I accepted him for he is from the moment I met him. Have I ever said "change?" Okay, for cosplays and attire, change three times every day ideally and change once we're done, but I mean his personality. Kyoya would be Kyoya if he changed. The way he's intimidating and could kill me, I like that to stay.

I know who my cast is. When it comes to recruitment, I don't mind the people I'm friends with. Insult me, poke me with a stick, lightly humiliate me or rarely heavily humiliate me, ignore me, tease me. That is who you are. Why wouldn't I accept that?

I've told Kyoya-mun many times when she commented about Kyoya being mean or scary.
"No, that's just him xD"
"It's expected"

Like the senpais. They are scared of Kyoya, but mildly. I'm supposed to be scared of him, and I am very much, but like Tamaki, I'm also simultaneously not scared of him at all. We're best friends, so we're on the same level, and second-years. We have the same understanding and are on the same page when we plan.

Yes, Kyoya was scary but not really. He's just being himself so I'm not surprised. He's despicable sometimes. That's his personality trait. Of course I know who I'm talking to. I've always known that. Those who know Kyoya will never underestimate him.

My Gaian cast, the actual cast, are supposed to be who they are. I don't want anyone less than that or more than that. If Kyoya were nice all the time, we would have to catapult the copy out! (no, I'm kidding, we don't have one and that's rude ;;;. But that would be cool)

"Canon" is a great description, but "who you are" is better. I wouldn't want to restrict my friends from being themselves. That's not very nice.

For example, if I couldn't be myself around my friends, my cast, and the hosts, who could I be? I'd rather leave Gaia because there is no other option.



But back to this:

“Any sinister enemy…always starts by trying to become your friend.”

...WHAT?! gonk



I mean, yes, smart and reasonable strategy, and
sort of common sense, but that's mean... ;;
"Sinister" makes it worse, hahaha

Scary　☆　



-throws his head back in laughter before he acts as if he roughly holds a grudge- How could he, that underhanded b*****d? xD Three years ago in middle school because of our families. He had a lot of audacity!



I was supposed to write something after "scary" but after the interruption above, I lost my train of thought sweatdrop

-BLANK-

I feel like it's important but I don't know what it is...
It's been hours. I'll edit this if I can recall it later.]