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When life beats you down, and you get on your knees and stop fighting back, what do you expect? Do you expect life to leave you alone, and walk away? No, it kicks you while you're on your knees. Every time you give up, you're just dooming yourself further and further into failure. If giving up actually worked, and made the challenge end, I would just give up... but giving up only makes it worse.
For every time I was too depressed or too hurt, every time I felt like I had no place in the world, every time a person betrayed me so horribly, I was without words... every time I said "I give up", did that make the pain stop? I said "I give up", and did people stop betraying me? Did I find my place? Did I stop being depressed and did I stop being hurt? Nothing changed.
So why give up? Why give in? It's not enough, it never is. I'll go on, I'll live it out. When life beats me down, I'll stand back up and crush life to pieces. When hardships fill my life, I'll fill the lives of those hardships with hardships. When I'm lonely and depressed, I'll make the cause of my loneliness and depression lonely and depressed.
I'll glide through this challenge called life on wings made out of this cynical knowledge, because giving up is for idiots that think it will make it all go away. If giving up changed anything, then I would get on my knees and just admit defeat... but giving in has never changed a thing, so I will go on until the end.