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I tried to distract myself

To ignore the tension.

And it was working fine.

I leaned back in my seat

Beside my 'sister'.

But then they all stood up

Leaving me with him.

We sat in silence.

Because it's amazing

When all that had been done

And there was nothing left to say.



The cold wind stung my face.

And the warmth of his jacket

Soothed me.

I wanted to hold this feeling

These half-remembered memories.

They shouted to me

Wanting to run back inside

To the warmth.

But I kept walking away

Intending for lonely reminiscing

But I heard him behind me.

As we walked

I could feel the sadness

Coiling inside.

Because he had nothing left to say.



Once I collapsed onto the futon

He and my 'brother' fell onto me

Seeking comfort

In my warmth and softness.

Calm and affection washed over me.

He pulled my leg to his hip

And my hand ran through his soft hair

The other

On instinct

Fell to his heart.

When my 'brother' left to get a drink

We stayed like that.

It felt perfect.

And we had nothing left to say.



Hands were all over me

My 'brother' spooning me

Me laying across his chest.

It was a feeling of warmth and comfort.

Perfection.

In the darkness

He took my hand

Running my fingers across his lips.

A tingling lover's caress.

Then lovingly he kissed my palm.

No one else had seen.

It was a secret declaration.

And it left me speechless

With nothing left to say.



He was going to leave

And sadness gripped me.

I wasn't ready to say 'goodbye'.

Everyone could see it.

Both of us

Reluctant to let go.

As he sat

I leaned against his back

My lips pressed to his shoulder blade.

He turned to look into my face

Took my hand

And right in front of them all

Place it over his heart.

It felt perfect and affectionate.

He stood to leave

And we looked in each other's eyes

Said nothing.

Because there was too much left to say.