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I just wish you wanted to be there for me.

You are supposed to love me.
You are supposed to support me.
When I need someone to lean on, you're supposed to be there.

But here I am, all alone.

This is the reason why it happens all the time.

abandonned

I have been struggling with this for years. You have seen me fight off these horrid tendencies, I have lost friendship and friendship because I can't pull myself together.

Where are you? I am hurting.

You know that I have struggled with it:
Suicide

You know that I have hurt myself.
For years I've been wallowing.

Are you scared to see it be real? Are you afraid to know that I feel pain, despite what you try to shelter me from?

I just wish that you wanted to be here with me for this.
I just wish that you wanted to see my recover.

Now I'm just falling back into my same old routine...