Lately, it's feels like I'm picking up fights with my girlfriend... Like... I'd just say something that'd probably lead to an argument or a conversation where one of us is upset or down... sad
I don't want that but why do I seem to do it lately... I'm such a horrible boyfriend... emo I hope this is a phase or something... I hope she understands... I hope she doesn't feel worse than this guilt I'm feeling sad
Just now, I just got of from our last conversation... It's about how she's neglecting me because she's out with a friend whom she hasn't seen in a while. stare
I know it's rare for her to do so, that's why I don't normally say anything. To be honest, I'm guilty at this as well. I tend to somewhat neglect her because I'm preoccupied but whenever I do, either it's important, I can't avoid it, it really takes my mind off of things, or whatever. So what's the difference between us? Why am I ranting this s**t? I dunno if she can or can't see it. If I'm wrong or not... But the difference is that even when I'm preoccupied, I try to focus on her, I keep in mind that I have to text her A.S.A.P. The longer it takes me to text her back, the heavier the weight on my shoulders feel. I worry if she's feeling lonely, how lonely she's feeling, is she getting upset? Stuff like that. With her? I think she doesn't even do or feel that way. Not even close, I think. Of course I can be wrong. I can be wrong on a whole lot of s**t. sweatdrop
sigh... I hate this... I hate how I am now... I hate how Diana and I are at a long distance relationship... I just know that... if we can see each other way more often... this would be much better, lighter... Not like this crap I'm bringing upon myself... emo
 XurWin · Fri Jun 01, 2012 @ 02:53pm · 1 Comments |
