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As i stare there and lie awake
i continue to think of this path that i now take
the hurt, sorrow, pain and loss...
it should all be hanging up high on that cross.
Forgiveness i give, but forget i can't
all because of this deceitful dance
my mind, my heart, my strength and soul...
soon may be swallowed by this neverending hole...

I'm trying to run to my hopes and dreams...
but in my mind, doubts and insecurity screams.
blinding my eyes and covering my ears...
i try to silence all these shrieking fears.
feeling these walls closing in...
i'm being tempted by dangerous sin.

These dead, hollow eyes stare into the darkening sky...
trying to find a reason, and hope, not to die.
i no longer find warmth in His open arms...
because all this blind faith has brought me was harm.
never before has this night felt so long...
waiting, longing for that one hopeful song.

These bruises, bite marks, burns and scars...
shows that my soul is now locked behind bars.
my heart now has broken wings...
waiting for the day that my angel sings.
wandering in darkness, searching for light...
holding onto reality, hoping to survive the night.