So I decided to come back to Gaia despite the fact that I swore I would never come back...just goes to show my lack of restraint and weakness.
Honestly, it's been a chaotic year and a half for me. A bunch of drama erupted within all three of my pockets of friends and quite frankly, it was too much for me to bear with. Usually, if drama broke out, it was relatively easy to just bounce around and kick it with a different group of friends but strangely enough, for the past year or so, it would seem that my plan was failing...miserably. Whether it be drama from a relationship, money, betrayal, s**t talking, etc, it would somehow find it's way over to all of my friends and made it nearly impossible for me to spend a simple day in peace. Even one group in particular, which was pretty good at controlling the amount of drama injected, nearly burst at the seams due to some idiotic decisions and lack of communications.
Financially, everything was like a yo-yo. Due to the fact that I was trying to get back into school, I had quit my job and tried to focus on studying. Bad mistake. All the money I had saved up all but vanished within a couple of months. Was it bad spending habits? Nope. I owe my lack of funds to my family. Yup, I did the unthinkable and loaned a bunch of money to my family and even signed for s**t that I thought they were good for. Outcome? Moral of the story is never mix money and family. It's quite literally the worst thing you can ever do. Thanks to that, I've been broke for about half a year now and due to it, have been stressing away and worrying about my future. Gee thanks. >>
Truthfully, I don't mean to brag or nothing but I'm actually not in that bad of shape. I used to work out all the time and overall, I was a very active person. I used to longboard along the beaches of Cali all the time, ride bikes and go mountain biking with my friends from time to time. Hell, watching and playing basketball and football were a weekend favorite. However, as some of you may know, I am quite prone to injury. I sprained/fractured my wrist while longboarding, rolled on my ankle twice, tore up my left side of my body while mountain biking (thank god for helmets), messed up my back by playing football (got tackled), and punished my body in ways I can't even remember. My point being? Sure my life was pretty active but I ended up recovering and resting just as much as I was going out and working out.
Too add to the list, a certain girl that I had really, really, really liked was snatched away. Well, I guess I'm not being fair to put it that way. Basically, she hooked up with one of my close buddies that I had known ever since high school so there was no way that she was ever touchable ever again. Like literally, I had to force myself to think that she wasn't the girl I liked anymore just for my friend's sake. Pure. Torture. Especially since she seemed like the perfect girl...*sigh*
Well, overall: crappy year and half. Hopefully it would get better...and quick.
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