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wow life can be annoying. boys being the main part sometimes i have a hard time understanding what life is truly about and i don't know how to handle it. sometime with life i just want to drop off the face of the earth so i wont have to deal with this life. my life is so screwed up and half the time i don't even know how to handle it. i basically blow up at everybody who tries to help me. i'm the type of person who tends to just want to be left alone. i dont like people having pity for me and right now with my life i feel im getting alot of it. and i dont feel like i deserve it at all. i hate people feeling bad for me. and one thing i hate is when people say they understand what i am going through when there is no possible way they can ever truly understand anything i am going through. i am not sure if i can handle any more stress. i know i should focus on school and try to live life to its fullest. but i dont see how i can ever live happily. if you know me well enough you would understand and know that i am normally never trully happy with my life because its so confusing exclaim confused sometimes i secretly wish that i was never born so i would never have to deal with my life.