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I have finally gotten one part of my life back, to what feels comfortable to me, since my sis moved back in. my room is clean and organized. I don't know why but that seems in a way a talent. I can't help that part in me, if i feel something out of place i put my responsibilities aside just for that small imperfection. Not that i really strive for perfection. It's common sense, perfect does not fit in our world only our translations of it.

Anyways, it's been a little fuzzy in my head since my sis moved in and my life has been more complicated for that reason. She moved back into the house and into my room, since of course i happen to have the biggest room in the house. i had to Make room for her belongings. Me being the type of person i am, cleaned out a lot i did not feel i needed any time soon and unpacked her things, more for my comfort.

The down side, she took advantage of me like she always has. I'm a very good big sister, always have been, i believe so... When we were younger, i would protect her, get in trouble for her, provided whatever she needed. Now that she is older, i don't think it's really fair.

Because of her i do not have the freedom i once did. I can't go out with my own best friend any longer. I can barely go to the market alone. the only time i have time to myself is school. Which happens to be the only place i can think properly. My mom is trying to take a grand hold on me because she can't control my sister. I'm forgeting my point...

Oh Ya! well let me just say. I fully cleaned my room! everything of mine is nicely put away and everything is organized and put away. I did do my sister a favor of folding her bed and placing her clothing over her bed. that will be the extent of my generosity.

Good news aside. Tomorrow i will be looking for a job in school and I'm opening a bank account.

Step by step is the only way you can make sure you don't fall on your head. I will set my road so i will always know how to care for myself if i am ever left alone to my misery. haha you have to admit... it happens...