You know, i don't always get to vent out about my problems and the one person that i trusted with my problems no longer is verbally around- or in this case talking to me in any form. so let me take my problems to this bord for now.
I cried yesterday. yes, i cried and honestly i don't get talking about that. but -like often- it's because of my mom. you see, we had a surprise house inspection and my brother and i were the only ones home. i ended up leading her around the house for what needed to be check. now here's why i got yelled at: (i wasn't there for the first inspection) i didn't know what closet she was refering to when she said there were wires that had to be fixed, were they fixed? i had to show her the stoves top to make sure they all worked- it was a bit of a mess since my dad had cooked a mess while drunk the night before. and there was more but it's pretty much the same deal.
so like i was saying my mom yelled at me saying that everything was my fault. what ever was wrong with the house, the surprise inspection, not knowing what she was going to check... it goes on and i couldn't help it i cried. i felt frustrated, it's not my fault on any of those things... what happened is not my fault. what's worse is when we argue it's not even arguing anymore. it's her yelling at me about whatever she wants. I'm her verbal punching bag... i am verbally abused by my mom constantly... and you know what... i don't know what to do...
I cried yesterday. yes, i cried and honestly i don't get talking about that. but -like often- it's because of my mom. you see, we had a surprise house inspection and my brother and i were the only ones home. i ended up leading her around the house for what needed to be check. now here's why i got yelled at: (i wasn't there for the first inspection) i didn't know what closet she was refering to when she said there were wires that had to be fixed, were they fixed? i had to show her the stoves top to make sure they all worked- it was a bit of a mess since my dad had cooked a mess while drunk the night before. and there was more but it's pretty much the same deal.
so like i was saying my mom yelled at me saying that everything was my fault. what ever was wrong with the house, the surprise inspection, not knowing what she was going to check... it goes on and i couldn't help it i cried. i felt frustrated, it's not my fault on any of those things... what happened is not my fault. what's worse is when we argue it's not even arguing anymore. it's her yelling at me about whatever she wants. I'm her verbal punching bag... i am verbally abused by my mom constantly... and you know what... i don't know what to do...
