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What is beauty? Soemeone please explain it to me.

I had already began losing weight and eating right when I met you,
but see you gave me the incentive to work harder. I knew I didn't add up to the other girls around you, all fighting for your affection. I lost my dorky lenses, slimmed down, and gave up my one ultimate prtection... all for you. Well... I did it for me too. The hair and everything was because I wanted it done. It's just, I don't want to be cute... I want to be beautiful in your eyes. Not someone elses, your eyes only. My aunt and family placed me on a diet, but I went behind their backs. two years ago, I started taking my mother's diet pills... because I wanted to be thin and sexy.

After I got to know you, I figured that all didn't matter. I could be me and you would find me beautiful no matter what. The long talks we had in the tower and durin our walks, they gave me confidence... but you don't remember those.
All I ever wanted was to be the person you wouldn't be afraid to be seen in public with, someone you wouldn't mind saying "I love you" to.

I shouldn't rant...we have had some great times together. I wouldn't change the past for anyamount of wealth in the world. that I will charish forever.

It's just, writing out my feelings, writing out my thoughts... Seems to be an effective way to talk to you... It's a way that prohibits me from tripping over my words, getting tongue tied and losing my thought....