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Ho boy, it's been forever since I last updated this puppy. Let's get started once again, shall we mis compadres?

Well, it's been a long nine grueling months since I last gave you guys a heads-up in what was going on in my life. Last entry was around Valentine's Day, if I'm not mistaken, and the candlelight webcam dinner me and Josh had was a complete success. Although I had to buy the meatball-marinara sub at Subway and he had to order Chinese, as the Subway that was by the base had run out of marinara sauce. Go ******** figure. College was going along smoothly, and two months later I turned not-so-famous nineteen..a month later Josh visited for a few weeks and managed to get his driver's license. He drove up to my house and called me on my cell and told me to look out my window-him and his friend Lorne were in his sister's car, and who was behind the wheel? None other than my love, Joshua Petty. The rest of his time home on leave was very eventful, needless to say.The morning he had to leave, his grandpa picked me up so we could have breakfast at a restaurant before heading out to the airport. At the airport, it was quite an adventure as me, his sister, Josh, and his grandpa had some troubles at the security gates. Taking off my shoes was NOT in the brochure, hell I even had to take off my belt and pray to god that my jeans didn't fall down. But we did make it through and we waited at the gate for his departure. Seeing him leave, I just lost it and cried my eyes out-I can't remember crying so much in all of my life. His sister comforted me and we had a few laughs as we exited the airport, and I suddenly just remembered from that day that me and him were wearing the same 'Hyrule is for lovers' shirts that he ordered online.

The three days after he left were so hard, I was so emotional and upset at him leaving. I wished so hard that something would happen and that he would come home...and just like that things changed.

If I never told you guys about the incident at our High School that ******** Josh's life over, now would be a good time to tell it. Josh can work out the details on his own accord, but I'll give you the run-down from my point of view. Basically, Josh made a bomb comment in one of his classes (on accident and for conversation purposes) and the school didn't take to it too well at all. The next thing he knows, he's leaving the school tied down to a stretcher and was sent via ambulance to a mental ward for the rest of the school year. All he could think about was me, and just cried himself to sleep each night because he missed me so much. At this point we were not dating, and I myself was concerned about Josh even though I pretended to hate him (which I kick myself in the a** for now). Eventually, Josh thought about it and decided that if he didn't or couldn't have me, then he'd try his damn hardest to make sure I lived out a happy and safe life. His original plans were to join the Navy and get the best training possible, to find where I would live in the future and move nearby to watch over me and my family. It does sound creeper-ish, believe me I know. About July or August of last year, I was in the kitchen helping my mom put away plastic ware in our cupboards. I heard her get the mail as we heard the metal clank of our mailbox outside our front door, when suddenly I hear my mom come into the kitchen and hand me a letter, and the first thing I could do was cry in joy as I saw the name Joshua A. Petty on the envelope. He had sent me a letter from bootcamp, and I was just so shocked that I intended to send him a letter back right away for him to get. But my life was just so busy and I had quite a few personal and family matters to tend to, I never got around to it. September rolled along, and one night I was at my computer (this was the 15th or 16th of September at this point) and I picked up the phone, curious. Lo and behold it was Josh himself, and I was so elated that he was doing things for himself and had entered the Navy for his own benefit. Over the course of three to four hours, we had the most lovely conversation and shared so many laughs. He even poured his heart out to me, and I felt this sudden strange connection with him. Before we let each other go for the night, I made an agreement that I would give him a chance at a relationship and see how it would go. I never knew that what I had said would be the best decision of my life, and that's how me and Josh came to be as we are now.

But previously as I had discussed, what I had hoped for was for Josh to come home so we could have a normal life. I learned that 'be careful what you wish for' can be a cruel thing, and before we knew it the Navy caught up with what had happened to him in high school, and he was being sent home ASAP. I felt guilty because I wished and hoped so hard for him to come home, and I was getting what I wanted-but at the price of Josh's dreams and happiness. One night I had cried myself to sleep, knowing Josh would be home the very next week. I was exhausted and fell asleep right away, but suddenly I heard a faint and familiar voice. "Samantha...wake up....Samantha, c'mon...wake up, you..." My eyelids fluttered open, and I saw a shadow by my face. Slightly panicked, I became startled and as I rubbed my eyes open, the very figure of Josh came into view. He had come home early to surprise me. All I could do was stare at him with my mouth agape, tears welling up in my eyes. The next ten minutes were filled with joyous crying, hugs, and my yelling as he told me that everyone else knew he was coming home early but me.

The rest of the summer was a blast, and we managed to get Josh signed up for college at the dismay of his family. Fall blew in and we had tons of fun, picking out classes and hanging out with our friends.

Things are very hard right now, but from the recent discovery of my Gaia friends from my family poking through my phone and drama emitting from friends vs friends, family vs Josh and me vs family vs friends vs college, this new change of my life proves to be difficult but eventful. We'll manage to make it, and soon me and Josh will be twenty years old-with the world and all that inhabit it as our oyster.

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