tired but wants to be heard
Ok let me start off. Its about 6:45 in the morning on sunday ive been up for almost 24hours taking care of my neice so if my typeing sucks get over it i cant see and im tired so screw it. ANy way. My one year is coming up at the end of this week but i dotn get to see my love because of grounding it kinda sucks a** cause every plan we had just died. ANother thing i think im going through depresion again and i really dotn want that because ive been doing really good at being happy. well kinda being happy. Im happy when im around my frinds and bf. but lately ive been feeling really out of place like i odnt belong like im an outcast. thats not normal for me to feel because well i get along with just about everyone i can fit in with just about any crowed not because i try to fit in but becasue of who i am. im my own person i never try being someone im not. But the people i hang out with accept me as me. but why do i feel like i no longer belong. FOr the past few days ive been wondering if im truly still needed in this world. I mean people say i am but are they telling the truth. Do they really need me or are they just saying that to keep me happy. Im not fond of people telling me that oh your great when im really sucking at something. or oh your needed we love you when its not true. I just want to knwo i feel this way. but i guess all i can do is sit back and wait and see what life has in store for me. but i know there are a few poeple that truly do love me but what about the others are what they say nothing but lies to my face. is there any way i can tell. I hope there is casue im tired of feeling like i no longer belong with the people that know me the best
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