Sango and I, wont yet it heal what had happen between us. I will never forget what I said and done, but I think she she saw she she did, I know I hurt her, but she lied to me. Whats funny is we did it together. I know she is... well, at lest, but I don't think she'll ever forget what I did. and I know I wont. I had made a vow after I remembered her lie... I vowed never to love again. It was why this mess happened in the first place. It's also why I hate today. She wasn't my first love, but she was my strongest, it's why I still think of her, two years later.
Hm, Maybe Kaykay was right, I need to just forget my pain, and my troubles. Why do I let everything hurt me so? I don't understand it. I let even the littlest things hurt me, maybe even to much, Bah, I should just close my eyes and sighs, then be done with it. I should just forgive my self, and forget what has happened.
I know it will be hard, but I think I'm ready. Sure it was two years after Kay told me to change, but I am me, not her. I change when I'm ready, and I say I am... What? Why am I thinking about the CC? I have no friends there anymore, at lest form what I understand. Jessi, Fox... maybe Dawny, Kupo, and... That's it. Kupo is never on enough to chat with for long, I don't know what happened to Fox, and Dawny, I don't talk to enough anymore... and Jessi, I talk to her alot... haha. at lest one a week. Ah well.
Close my eye and take a deep long breath, close my eyes, and let it go, I ready. I know it.
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Nekuia's wishes
has and holds Nekuia's wishes, wants, and anything that comes to mind. It had a lock but it seemed to of been broken, wanna take a look?
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