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i keep falling deeper in this depression. no one notices. fooled by my fake smile and forced laugh. will they ever see? will anyone try to save me. if they saw my planed death, if they noticed my slashhed body, if they walked in on me with a slipknot around my neck, i wonder, i want to leave. i hate being forced to live, to breath another breath. each is a chore. i nothing but a dead weight, not wanted here, yet im forced to stay. who will take my hand and lead me through this darkness? who cares enough to stand by my side at whatever the cost, who wants to bear the burdin of having me as a friend....who loves me enough to even try to save me? i wonder it night and day. the answer is clear to me, no one.