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I lean against the wall, it's cold at the touch and almost suffocating but as I stare out at all the judging eyes, just waiting to hear what it is i have to say I realize....I realize why be judged by those who are among you and feel the need of complete acceptance? Why should I try and change what I am for their sake? No I will not change for that, that isn't what i am and it isn't something i wish to be. I am happy with how i am and understand things in a different way yes, but that doesn't mean others can judge me on it that doesn't make me falter. I believe everyone can Think what they want, that if you change for anything and any reason it should be because you want to or it's something you are capable of. Everyone has the right to be what and who they are never let anyone tell you different and hey if they do....I recently learned from an amazing person that maybe just maybe their afraid of what they can;t understand and hide behind their religion or excuses because it gives them, safety and security. But don;t let that stop you because in the ending of it all you are who you are and you should be proud of that because it is what it is if there is something you keep closed and locked away...isn't it meant to someday be unlocked and set free that's why i am writing this My secret My undeniable truth is that I AM PANSEXUAL and no one can change that about me i am who i am...And i think it's about time the ones around me learn the truth because Im still me right? It's not as though my skins changed or i sprouted wings...so whether the acceptance is there after wards is in the others hands but I'll be who i am no matter what. I WILL NOT BOW TO SOMETHING I DON'T BELIEVE IN ANYMORE OR BECAUSE SOMEONE ELSE DOESN'T AGREE WITH IT. im going to throw it out there and finally feel this heavy weight release me...and if nothing else If i am rejected, heh well then it's just something that is to be because even though i can say i myself am pansexual and love everyone equally...the truth is everyone is Bias to a certain extent and i aslo accept that but im done hiding, done cowering away because im terrified of the worst to come...Im done following in place like a trapped shadow behind this lie....today I Will release myself.