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I really need to stop this relationship with procrastination. It has gotten to me badd. Well okay, that and I blame Josh. I never talk to him, and I see him usually whenever I hang with VisualSusumu. I know he randomly comments on my status or photos, and well he left a comment on my recent one that made me delete it. Nothing to weird but still, people would be like wow. So I just made a comment to him on messenger and it went on from there. That was just....akward. Like after talking to him about random stuff, I think he might like me in a weird "I would tap that" kinda way. Which every guy has thought of once, but still....ew/ So yeah, never talking to him on fb chat evver again.
Anyway, procrastinating here on a paper due tomorrow. Like I could finish it in 20 mins, which is probably why I'm letting it put off. That and I have a ton to do tomorrow. Not really a ton though, but yes. I have that paper for peer review, then a paper we have to type and finish in class. A little break for food, tango class, my best friend comes home for fall break and idk what else. I know my weekend is packed. I tend to stress on the smallest of things but I can't help it.
I really cannot wait until a month from now. I will finally be of legal age. I mean sure, this is the last time I will be a minor and I will definitely wish to be this age 20 years from now. But right now, I don't want a curfew, or be told what to do if it's really stupid. And I reaaaally want to go to a dance club like NOW. Without dances in college, I will spontaneously combust because I love dancing. It's so fun and with friends and total strangers its like a rebellious thing to do. Because where I live, it's kinda so boring that the highlight of the night would be clubbing. Which only occurs wednesday nights or fridays.
Alright prolonging the paper. Goodnight my gaians.
Oh okay, one random thought before i go because this has been bugging me. Everytime I feel the exact moment of no drama, my life is boring with no gossip or crazyness, all of that happens to me! All these guys who I used to date(and for me that's like a one day or a few weeks of liking them, i know im a crazy person =/) suddenly text me or contact me at the same time. I mean really? Not to mention girl drama with people breaking up, random confessions to other people on facebook. And I do like the outburst don't get me wrong. But I only know a few guys in college, to think of it I rarely talk to them on a regular basis; the only one I do is my best friends ex so he doesn't really count. But come on. I have yet to meet an interesting face on campus! Where are they all hiding? *sigh* sorry for the rant. I get the occasional "single blues" which goes away. I think the only thing that really bugs me is that I'm in college and I've never kissed a boy. All those sleepovers and conversations of past guys never happen to me because none of those past scenarios have ever happened to me! Seriously, every other weird scenario like:
~getting hit on at a gas station
~drinking parties that aren't crazy but s**t happens and you're like wtf,
~~~~holding a grudge on one person because they played with your emotions like silly putty in order for you to care so much for them, that you're so gullible to everything, and you feel like they broke your heart in a million pieces and to this day if you are reminded of them or even think about them, you are still picking up the pieces...
Wow rant much? Anyway, I know I'm not the only girl because I'm friends with those who have yet to be kissed as well. They are jealous since I've had guys interested in me before, even asked me to dances. In truth, sometimes I'm jealous of them because they don't get their hopes up so quicky. When I look back I realize how annoying I was lol.
Okay I'm starting to fall asleep on my lappy. peace.