This may be one of the crazies journal entries ever cuz i gotta lotta stuff on my mind...
School ended today and i still havn't gotten through my thick skull that I won't be walkin into Civics Monday mornin. It's crazy. At other schools you get eased into the end of the year. This one is like POW!!! WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO FOR SUMMER VACATION?!? and we're all like WAT!?! IS HERE???? ALREADY???? HOLY F***IN S**T!!!! Ya know. Ok metaphore time: So you wearing rollor blades through a big city. On the run Turn here(English Report) Turn around really fast (Forgot to turn in Art Project) Go to other side of the city to study for math... Then bam! Your instruction sheet say make a sharp right turn at the next light. HOLY CRAP YOUR IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE!!! Wat in the world are ya gonna do? Is there ANYTHING to do? Dang!!! Where'd everybody go??? Yea thats what is like... Luckily I have drivers ed. this week so Hey look There's a mailbox in the middle of that nothin-ness (Jump in to learn how to drive confused ) Yea...
Ok. Another thing on my mind is that sumone asked me wat i look for in a guy.... Well alotta stuff.... He has to make me feel like an actuall human being. I can't be nervous around him... I can't constently worry that i'll mess up and say sumthin extremely embarasing... I want him to think that I'm awesome and that i'm the most beutiful girl in the whole entire world. But i don't just want him to think that, I want him to make me think that about myself. I wanna wake up in the mornin without the critical eye. Crap another zit. Dang my thighs look big: Like flippin tree trunks. Ahhhh LOVE HANDLES!!! NO!!! I wanna wake up and say. Snap! I look GOOOOOOD!!! Wouldn't it be awesome to be datin sumone totally hot who thinks your amazingly beutifulll??? (IF YOU ARE THIS PERSON PM.... NOW!!!) All gurls are sittin here reading this goin yea! where do i get me one of them? Where The F**K are these guys hiding anyways... Oh yea there all gay.... Little Awesome Guy idea just swwwwwwww Kaboosh!!!! (Plane Crash Stimulation) dang ya know...
Yea............................ I'm tired.... And I feel lonely. Not like the 'I have no friend I'm all alone BOOHOO' type lonley but the 'Is anybody out there for me' kinda lonely... Cuz right now its startin to seem kinda lonesome.....
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