I am so confused. About everything. I can't stand it. No suicidal or crazy thoughts have drifted through my brain, but I sometimes feel like they might in a time drawing nearer every day.
I always franticly try to keep up with friends and hobbies and other things. But sometimes I am lost in thought and it slows me down. I always have someone trying to talk words into my ears, and I feel bad because my mind isn't paying attention nor my eyes are meeting up with the other person in the conversation. Also, I feel like I will never be able to find who I am. I mean, lately, I've been feeling the most true to myself in some things, while the other half of the day that drags on slowly, I am acting like a totally different person.
Ugh. I seriously need to return this life to Walmart and get a brand new one. Without having to pay again.
But then again, I do not think I should be asking or wishing for a new life or style. Because if I didn't have this life, I wouldn't have:
*Jennamena (Jenna)
*Scene neko gurl (Zehari)
*Sadistic Rainbows (Megan)
*My love <3
*My hobby interests, which helped create who I am
*My thoughts and views of what to stand for and what to fall for
*Everything else that I love
And even though sometimes I wish I could change everything, I try to recognize the good things in life. And I try to think of this period of my life as something that should me more fun than terrorizing. It ma be hard, but I can get through this.
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You know I'm here for ya! It's okay to cry on my shoulder! heart crying
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