In our busy, fragile existence we often lost sight of both our core values and truly key matters. Sometimes the things we think we need must slip from our grasp so we can evaluate our world, our lives, ourselves. This process may take 3 days or 3 months but what we discover can be nothing short of life altering, staying with us for over 3 decades. My own walk led me deep into my inner chaos, revealing things I stowed away and never hoped to see again. Now the truth of my existence has been put forth and I know well where my destination lies.
The day my connection to the outer world was gone laid bare the dissolution of what I once knew. From Thanksgiving on the bonds within my family unraveled, slowly showing the waste, cowardice and hypocrisy I always knew was there but could never face. The more of it I saw he further inwards I looked, wondering how much of it I let seep through and if I was able to let it flow away. Many books I studied and many miles I traveled in this search, and in time I was at peace with my attachments falling away from me, as well as relying on my own strength. In honing that strength I realized while I do not need things or people to lead a fulfilling life they enrich it in so many ways, and now I hold strong the desire to do the same for those I meet and those who choose to stand beside me.
At time we are confronted with a world that seems as stable as as sand, perhaps even quicksand. The more we struggle the faster we sink and let our troubles consume us whole. Only when we calm ourselves do we see what lies around, ready to lead us to what we have long desired. I stand now with that thing in hand, prepared to follow the trail it presents. My most trying time may await me there but I gladly approach them, knowing my greatest growth lies just beyond.
Koiyuki Community Member 
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