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well what can i say
well today was okay. i didnt have to go to work so i just rested all day. hopefully i can go out with my friends later but i dont know. ive been spending alot of time at the computer and my sister got me at me because she thinks i spend too much time here. it trues but what can i say im addicted to the internet. lol i spend alot of my time talking to someone i like but she doesnt feel the same way about me. im scared that im going to scare or push her away. it hurts too because she going through alot of stuff and i cant really be there for her. also im living a pretty pleasant life right now so i feel guilty. lol i actually hope to get drunk but i have work tomorrow so im worried about that. maybe just a little i guess. then again i may not go out at all. oh well. lets see. she probably going to read this so im trying to think of something to put but right now i cant think of anything. lol. My dad is getting mad at me because i havent learned how to drive yet and hes getting tired off picking me up late at night. to be fair though i dont blame him. he shouldnt have to wake up at one in the morning and go pick me up. its just im scared of driving. i know im going to crash because my mind wanders alot. when i walk to or home from work. i start thinking about stuff and before i know it im home. i dont even realize im turning or anything. ive almost died a couple of times because of this. so in a car im sure im going to crash. oh well. lets see what else. um im getting my vacation soon so im happy about that. i get to choose when i get it so im really happy about that. woot. a whole week of not working and just resting. man that sounds so great.
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I can definetly understand the spending a lot of time talking to someone that you like, but doesn't feel the same way about you....yes, I can.
You have to stop feeling so badly when your situation seems better off than others. No, I am not saying quit caring about the people around you and their lives. I am just saying that that kind of guilt is illogical and detrimental to your health.
Life is different for every person, not just that but they percieve their own lives differently. There is a lot of relativity too it. Something you may think of as really bad off, may be the best part of someone's life. And reverse, there are those people that may be having an easy go at things, and they still think their life is dreary.
I know that no matter how I am, or how I am living at any given moment someone somewhere is happier than me, someone is sadder than me, someone is having the best time of their life somewhere, and someone is being a totally spoiled b***h with everything handed to them on a platter somwhere.
I don't get bitter, I don't feel guilty, I help others when their path crosses mine and when I can actually be able to do so without over extending myself. If I ******** myself over that is one less person that has the love, capability, and compassion to help others...so yeah worrying for yourself first is a good thing, just don't go overboard with it.
Not working IS fun.
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