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well its thanksgiving and im home by myself. my parents and in Los Angeles and im here alone. ah the solitude. actually though its what i wanted. i wanted to be able to rest. not only was yesterday a pretty hellish day or at least towards the end of work but ive also been working for about nine days straight. pretty tired. they scheduled my days so i would rest for the beginning of one week and the end of the second week. well besides work ive been okay i guess. as for thanksgiving i made a stupid vow to myself since today is the day everyone esle eats and gorges themselves then i will not eat at all. no this isnt for any other reason than stupidity. im not making a stand nor am i expressing and ideal or belief. its just a strange thought that came to me and me being the insane person that i am felt compelled to do it. so yeah im not eating today ive gone days without eating before so it really isnt about proving anything to myself. im just weird. well another weird thing that happened today was my friend called me on the phone and him being the usual dumbass that he is started to sing in japanese. now besides from this being actually quite funny it led me to question him as to whether or not he was going to learn japanese and when he said yeah i decided then and there god damn it im going to school next semester. and im going to take japanese with him. odd how such a little thing influenced me to make a relatively big decision. i also talked to another friend and told him how i was going to be taking japanese with a friend and he said that he would too. how odd. a little stupid thought provoked and avalanche of thought and action. lol well anyways wish me luck on this day of not eating.



EDIT: why do i keep doing this. i keep on going. and dont stop. i cant help it i really should just get over it. but well meh. only one of you who actually reads my journal might understand what i mean and in all probablity she wont. but oh well i just put this as a reminder to myself to stop. hopefully i can force my determination on this but who knows.