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This is a place of utter insanity.
Trust...can't do it, I will break if I do, cause always seems to betray me.

Betrayal...faced it so many times in my life that I cant handle it again.

Love...I must learn to live without it, before it destroys my soul.

Destroy...Is what I must do if I want to keep my sanity.

Wall...I must build to lock my self away from any more pain.

Well thats it folks. Three years and its over. I guess we just cant be together. He says I dont love him but thats a load of s**t. All the crap he put me through its unbelievable. He cheated, I forgave him, he hurts me when I actually beceome happy, he even yells at me when I can't let him sleep. I have Somniphobia so its hard for me to sleep regularly, he doesnt care.

The final straw was about an hour ago his ex-girlfriend called here and he just spews our business to her like it was nothing. He really hurt me, I guess in the end you really cant trust anyone, they just find out stuff about you so they can know your weakness. It hurts and so I broke up with him. I can not be in a relationship where I can not trust my partner and one were he betrays me at every turn.

Now I know im not the best girl ever Im fat, ugly, clinically insane, depressed, untrusting, low self esteem, and everything else that is wrong with me. I know I have endangered his job on more than one accastion, and that ive hurt him too. But I dont think its right that he always get to hurt me...I just feel like crawling into a ball and dieing somewhere away from the rest of the world. Just crawl inside myself and inplode.

User Comments: [1]
I am Lord michael
Community Member

Sat Nov 08, 2008 @ 10:02am

Dont worry about him, he's not the right guy for you. You need a man who will stay up with you till you fall asleep. He needs to listen to what you have to say. He needs to care for you and your feelings. You shouldn't have to settle for less then a good, faithful, loving man.

User Comments: [1]
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