Trust...can't do it, I will break if I do, cause always seems to betray me.
Betrayal...faced it so many times in my life that I cant handle it again.
Love...I must learn to live without it, before it destroys my soul.
Destroy...Is what I must do if I want to keep my sanity.
Wall...I must build to lock my self away from any more pain.
Betrayal...faced it so many times in my life that I cant handle it again.
Love...I must learn to live without it, before it destroys my soul.
Destroy...Is what I must do if I want to keep my sanity.
Wall...I must build to lock my self away from any more pain.
Well thats it folks. Three years and its over. I guess we just cant be together. He says I dont love him but thats a load of s**t. All the crap he put me through its unbelievable. He cheated, I forgave him, he hurts me when I actually beceome happy, he even yells at me when I can't let him sleep. I have Somniphobia so its hard for me to sleep regularly, he doesnt care.
The final straw was about an hour ago his ex-girlfriend called here and he just spews our business to her like it was nothing. He really hurt me, I guess in the end you really cant trust anyone, they just find out stuff about you so they can know your weakness. It hurts and so I broke up with him. I can not be in a relationship where I can not trust my partner and one were he betrays me at every turn.
Now I know im not the best girl ever Im fat, ugly, clinically insane, depressed, untrusting, low self esteem, and everything else that is wrong with me. I know I have endangered his job on more than one accastion, and that ive hurt him too. But I dont think its right that he always get to hurt me...I just feel like crawling into a ball and dieing somewhere away from the rest of the world. Just crawl inside myself and inplode.
The final straw was about an hour ago his ex-girlfriend called here and he just spews our business to her like it was nothing. He really hurt me, I guess in the end you really cant trust anyone, they just find out stuff about you so they can know your weakness. It hurts and so I broke up with him. I can not be in a relationship where I can not trust my partner and one were he betrays me at every turn.
Now I know im not the best girl ever Im fat, ugly, clinically insane, depressed, untrusting, low self esteem, and everything else that is wrong with me. I know I have endangered his job on more than one accastion, and that ive hurt him too. But I dont think its right that he always get to hurt me...I just feel like crawling into a ball and dieing somewhere away from the rest of the world. Just crawl inside myself and inplode.
