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Dear god,
I know I don't pray to you much, and I know it's kinda stupid to put it on a blog, but This prayer is ok for everyone to see. I love Jason Antonio Benitez, more then my life. I've kissed three guys (while dating him) and he found out about all of them...He's giving me another chance, but he says next time I do he will break up with me...which I don't want, I want to be with him forever. He told me when he was in sixth grade he was meditating and he saw one of his girlfriends in the future cheated on him. He told me today, "I pray to god you're not the girl who cheated on me" I nodded. I don't want to lose him. So god, please help me not kiss anyone else, I don't want to be untrue to him again...it tears me apart knowing I might not marry him. God, Please help me through this. Tell me it's bad to kiss...and I will most likely listen. I don't want to cry my eyes out again! He is the most important person in my life. I thought a long time ago I would be with Girey...sorry Girey, I love him more then you. I still love you thought...just not as much as I love Jason...I don't want to lose Jason at all! He is the best thing in my life and I don't want to lose him. If I lose him I will slowly go crazy (and most likely kill myself....) So god, please help me not cheat on The love of my life anymore....Try to help me stop having crushes on all those people I do...JASON is the one I think about (until one of my crushes messages me) It's strange. I want to think about Jason all the time not only when I'm not talking to my crushes...Please help me.
~Jessy~