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How do you talk to someone... Who most likely hates your guts?
How do you tell them that you don't hate them, and that you'd truly appreciate it if you guys could try talking to eachother without them blowing up on you?
It's difficult, really. And to those of you who have, I hope everything worked out.
As for me, well, I'm still sitting here, being my indecisive self, wondering- No, trying to figure out how to talk to her without causing her the pain of having to talk to me... Heh, let me tell you, it's not easy... Well, at least for me...
How do you tell someone you're sorry, when it's not your fault?
Do you just sit there and wait for that person to say something to you first?
Or do you just sit there and say nothing at all?
When something happens that is out of your control and it hurts someone so deeply to where it leaves them forever emotionally scarred and you- Well, you truly start hurting and feeling bad for the person even though everyone around you says it's not your fault, and yet every night, you lay awake in bed and try to convince yourself that it really isn't your fault and that you shouldn't be worried (because deep inside you know it's not)- When, and how, do you tell that person you are sorry?
Still, I sit here, I'm still being my indecisive self, and I'm still not sure if I have the courage to talk to her...
I didn't want to see him hurt her like that... I wanted to yell, I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry... Still, he'd never listen to me on that certain subject.
I want him to take her back, I want the two of them to be happy together... Even if that means I'm out of the picture. You see, they were together since the beginning of the year. (I think) And well, he and I got closer. I didn't want him to want me, hell, I didn't even want him to like me. But things changed... She got into a fight with him, and she said something that made him break up with her. She tried to get back with him, but he said no, she already said everything he needed to hear. When I see her, she looks so sad it makes me want to cry. She looks lost- heartbroken. I suffer greatly from empathy... When I'm around her I feel her pain, not all of it, but I do feel it. She loves him so much, but he doesn't feel the same way, instead, he wants me. Yeah, I did like him, I mean I've only known the guy forever, he sorta rubbed off on me... I liked him, I even told myself that sometimes I loved him... But I didn't want him to leave her...
She started getting jealous of me, and I always asked myself and my friends, "Why the hell should she be jealous of me?" and they would say, "Because, you've got her man." I'd stare at them and think "Wait a minute, he's not mine. He's hers." Still, it didn't change anything. Her jealousy ended up turning into a deep hatred for me, and I didn't want that. I didn't want her to hate me, I didn't want her to think it was all my fault that her beloved ex boyfriend broke up with her. I didn't want any of it.
I wanted to walk up to him and slap him across the face and ask him wtf his problem was, leaving her like that... She loved him, she loved him soo much, and he loved her too... Even after he broke up with her, she still wants him, she still needs him,and I can see that. And I want him to take her back, really, I do. She talks about him all the time, whenever asked who she wants, she always says "He knows who he is" and once when asked, Would it hurt seeing someone make out with the last person you kissed? her answer was, "Uhm yeah *stares at certain two people*" (Total stab at him and I...) When asked if she would kiss the last person she kissed again, her answer was "yes". When asked if she still had any of her ex's stuff, her answer was, "Yes, I'm wearing his sweater now". When asked to recall who they were with on New Year's Day, she answered by saying his name.
Because I am empathetic, I know how she feels... I hate seeing her in so much pain... It makes me hurt inside too, it makes me feel sorry/bad for her...
I feel guilty because her ex is now with me... Well, sorta anyway...
I just want her to know that I don't hate her and that I'd wish she would talk to me without sounding so... So.. Hostile.
So now tell me, how do you talk to someone who most likely hates your guts?
And how do you tell someone you're sorry, when it's not your fault?
