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Doubts in my mind
It's clouding my judgement
What if it was just a lie all along
And I was a game to be played?

Love is special and should be treated right
Yet why are you playing me like I have no life?
Is this real love or something labeled as fake
Am I just a toyed
To be mangled and hanged?

A trophy on your wall
With all the other little dolls
How could I be so niave
That you would fall in love with me?

Maybe I was desperate
To finally feel loved by you
I rushed into things
And now I wish I never found you

I knew there was another girl
Always was and always would
I knew I wasn't enough for you
Just because I wasn't perfect didn't mean I didn't love you

So why would you treat me wrong?
Like I have no feelings inside my heart
Is it just because Im different?
Right from the very start

How could this happen
For a love that I thought was true
Maybe I brought it upon myself
Because I thought it was never real

I thought I was your everything
And no lie was to come between us
Yet here you are lieing to me
Like I'm nothing but a shadow of once was

Maybe I am stupid, niave, and dumb
For thinking that love could find me
Yet here you are...
Washing away all that once was...