Hello all... this might be an important read...
I've decided to distance myself from everyone I know. It's best that way as it seems that I can't be close to someone without somehow hurting them. I've tried many a time and failed each and every time and I can't deal with it anymore...
In a way I am a coward, cause, instead of attempting to cope with emotional stress like any half-decent human being would do, instead, I've decided to lock them out. That way, I cannot feel for someone, then I cannot become close to them, and therefor, I am prevented, in advance, from hurting them. It's completely logical, and logic has never let me down before.
Please do not take this personally, anyone who might perhaps, I am exceedingly efficient at melding in with the shadows so as to not be noticed by anyone, anytime, and when all is said and done, I'm also very good at fading away to an abstract memory in the back of someone's mind, hidden away. I've done it before, and people were happy, and I intend to do so again.
So, as half-decent humans do, those who actually feel anything for me, you will be hurt at first, and will be able to cope, and eventually will get over it, and eventually I will be forgotten, and eventually everyone's lives will improve dramatically.
I will never abandon my brain again, it has always led me on the right path, whereas my heart has always, without fail, screwed me around. This is something I should not allow to happen again.
If I feel that I might be able to be trusted again, if I feel I deserve to be close to another again, then I may revert back... as I am also human, and humans are prone to repeating mistakes, which is another thing I am exceedingly good at.
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You are my besty forever and no one can take that spot ever