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Today was the funeral. My friend was in an accident, he was riding his moped with out a helmet for some reason which was strange because he always wears a helmet. He moved out of the way of a car gaining on him, he didnt see the curb, his head hit the wall, he died from head trauma. he was a good friend, i did not know him long enough, nor did i get to know him long enough. i cried, i cried a lot. i want everyone to know how empty and sad i feel to know that he will no longer be among us as human beings walking the planet but i am also happy to know that he is with god. however, i feel such sorrow and my heart just disintegrated when i saw his mother, she couldnt let go, she should have had to let go so soon. his birthday was june 8th he passed away may 18th. he wasnt even 18. he didnt even get to graduate. he wont ever graduate. he'll never experience many things in life like marriage or children. he'll never experience so many wonderful things in life and im so sorry that he cant. he is with god now in a haven where he is protected forever. i passed by and dropped a flower over his casket before they burried him, attached were cards written by friends. i didnt read them, they werent for me to read but for him. i also wrote that i was so sad that i didnt get to know him, it was hard to not cry, and i cried, and i cried, hihara-kun was there and i still cried, kyle was there and i still cried, riki was there and we cried together, shelby cried with me, stephanie, rachel, anthony, ian, ryan, and so many others were there crying with me. they knew him better than i, but i cried because i didnt get to have the honor of knowing him. i cried because his life was cut short, i cried because he made me laugh, i cried because he made ashley dance, i cried because he trapped ashley on the dance floor at prom, most of all i cried because he made me smile. i wish i had more time to get to know him. but i dont and i regret that most of all. RIP Jorge Portillio...We will miss you and your memory shall never fade...RIP Jorge Portillio...RIP...