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 Posted: Sat Jan 13, 2007 6:17 pm
I'm curious as to the events that led up to your becoming a "Gothic Angel". Did a parent wreck your life? A friend show you the way? Or was it an accident, something that you stumbled upon?
I'm looking for some good stories.
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Posted: Sat Jan 13, 2007 8:15 pm
well, when i moved from fresno to clovis (basically 15 miles difference between houses) i became really depressed and dark and started liking things "gothic". but i guess my turning point was in the 7th grade when i got my first glance at the whole "gothic scene." after that i always wanted a pair of "goth jeans" (which i still haven't got even though i'm in the 9th grade now sweatdrop ) so, i guess that's what got me started. oh! and there was this boy named Cody who was basically the leader of that whole group. i really started liking the whole gothic stuff when i saw him. (of course then i found out that he was a total jerk)
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Posted: Sat Jan 13, 2007 9:15 pm
well the reason i've become a gothic angel is because of parents and a boy i had to leave and that i loved so much well first my father and mother are devorced which never really bothered me until one day when they just kept attackin eachother through me. and the boy i like well one day on the bus we were bestfriends and i was sitting on the same seat on the bus and i turned to talk to him and he kissed me and ya later i found out i had to move and it crushed me so much...... crying
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Posted: Sat Jan 13, 2007 9:55 pm
apart from the moving part thats a pretty romantic bus story.
it just fit me perfectly. the style, the lifestyle, the music, the underground. i was comfortable there more than anywhere else, kinda like finding home.
it was just such a different and fun thing than anything i'd known before.
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little_evil_goth Vice Captain
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 11:49 am
little_evil_goth it just fit me perfectly. the style, the lifestyle, the music, the underground. i was comfortable there more than anywhere else, kinda like finding home.
it was just such a different and fun thing than anything i'd known before. Ditto. I never felt comfortable anywhere else. This sub-culture just suits me perfectly in every way. whee
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 12:54 pm
Well.. I started out as a metalhead (began listening to it in the 8th grade, and I guess in a sense I'm still a metalhead), but then I began to listen to Nightwish and Within Temptation and Cradle of Filth (which to me is a perfect mix of metal and goth) and... well, then I had a rough awakening. I dunno what happened, but, mom thought I was doing drugs for a while, and dad... urned out he certainly was not the one I thought he was... and... before that my friends were changing and I was having a hard time at school, at home and with myself and everything and I started cutting. Then I actually heard of goth-culture, and thought "what the hell" and checked it out, and it fit me perfectly. So now I listen to other goth-bands (but not a lot, I haven't gotten around to check them all out, and.. yeah, I still listen to heavy-metal and other music as well)
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:08 pm
Tyshia little_evil_goth it just fit me perfectly. the style, the lifestyle, the music, the underground. i was comfortable there more than anywhere else, kinda like finding home.
it was just such a different and fun thing than anything i'd known before. Ditto. I never felt comfortable anywhere else. This sub-culture just suits me perfectly in every way. whee
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:14 pm
wahmbulance WARNING wahmbulance ::
Complete shocker and heart stopper is underway~ and my Darkest little secretIn all truth, I ussed to be a prep but I was one of thoes girls who couldnt cut out to be one, no matter how hard I tried to fit in with the other girls, all throughout my elementary years I was always shoved out of the 'socialties' I thought they were my friends but I was only fooling myself, when behind my back they would talk about horrible nasty things about me that werent even true, they would treat me as their 'Dog' and they would laugh at my face. All to soon I become tired of their bullshit and their preppy ******** ways. Quickly my light colored clothes became darker and darker over time, I started wearing dark blue everyday, soon it all became black. My thoughts completly changed and so did my attitude twords everything, I started to care less of what the ******** everyone thought of me, I stood on my own from then on.
Only, my 'so called friends' became bitchy and angry, they didnt like what I was doing. They tried to change and force me back ussing nasty gossips and false stories about me. Once, they even went so far as to, jump me in the girls bathroom when my gaurd was down, four of them slammed me against the tile wall and the leader of their group pulled out some sciccors and cut my long blond hair short to my shoulders. I couldnt do anything, though I did manage to give them a good struggle and I kicked one of the girls in the face I was still out numbered. Everyone ignored me, I was a ghost dressed in black and her hair covering her face. The teachers didnt care and the school counselers thought I was yelling for help and they wanted to send me to a mental institute, because all of this abuse was 'In my head' and I was a dangerouse and violent child.
My parents didnt care I came home with tears staining my face, not that it mattered, I never cried in front of others anyways, that would only show that their winning. I became suicidal and I started cutting myself, stupid, I know but thats all I had. I made sure never to cut in areas that would be seen or found by others, so even to this day old scars on my upper thights can be seen. Some dissapeared, some are still their, but the onse that are visible and my black clothes are a reminder to myself....
"Never let anyone ******** with me again!"
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:17 pm
Wolf_Demon_Ayla wahmbulance WARNING wahmbulance ::Complete shocker and heart stopper is underway~ and my Darkest little secretIn all truth, I ussed to be a prep but I was one of thoes girls who couldnt cut out to be one, no matter how hard I tried to fit in with the other girls, all throughout my elementary years I was always shoved out of the 'socialties' I thought they were my friends but I was only fooling myself, when behind my back they would talk about horrible nasty things about me that werent even true, they would treat me as their 'Dog' and they would laugh at my face. All to soon I become tired of their bullshit and their preppy ******** ways. Quickly my light colored clothes became darker and darker over time, I started wearing dark blue everyday, soon it all became black. My thoughts completly changed and so did my attitude twords everything, I started to care less of what the ******** everyone thought of me, I stood on my own from then on.
Only, my 'so called friends' became bitchy and angry, they didnt like what I was doing. They tried to change and force me back ussing nasty gossips and false stories about me. Once, they even went so far as to, jump me in the girls bathroom when my gaurd was down, four of them slammed me against the tile wall and the leader of their group pulled out some sciccors and cut my long blond hair short to my shoulders. I couldnt do anything, though I did manage to give them a good struggle and I kicked one of the girls in the face I was still out numbered. Everyone ignored me, I was a ghost dressed in black and her hair covering her face. The teachers didnt care and the school counselers thought I was yelling for help and they wanted to send me to a mental institute, because all of this abuse was 'In my head' and I was a dangerouse and violent child.
My parents didnt care I came home with tears staining my face, not that it mattered, I never cried in front of others anyways, that would only show that their winning. I became suicidal and I started cutting myself, stupid, I know but thats all I had. I made sure never to cut in areas that would be seen or found by others, so even to this day old scars on my upper thights can be seen. Some dissapeared, some are still their, but the onse that are visible and my black clothes are a reminder to myself....
"Never let anyone ******** with me again!"
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 1:29 pm
It was my 8th grade year, and I met this guy on-line. He appealed to me in every way a guy could. He was goth, and that intrigued me. He still intrigues me to this day. His mannerism, the way he thinks, the way NOBODY ******** with him and gets away with it...
I was vulnerable, had no friends, everyone discarded me as a "freak", a nobody because my parents are bikers, alcoholics. He made me feel like a person. I was his gothic angel up until my Junior year of highschool. For two and half years I had lost who I was. My cuddle tiger is helping me regain that, and I love him more for loving me who I was, who I am, not who he can make me into.
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 3:59 pm
i was kind of just always interested in the music and clothing. I loved corsets ^^
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 5:45 pm
Well, It all started with a tid bit of curiosity... I was curious so I started to dress the part... I liked it so I stayed that way... Then my (currently) Ex-boyfriend named Dustin came waltzing in.... I was horribly facinated with him.. so I stuck around him.... After the torture he began to but me through I though that that I could get closer to him if I was "spooky" well... that was the "drive" to make me dig deeper into it (I know... horrible reasoning.... All so a boy would like me...) The deeper I dug I found I really liked it... Just about every one I met was really nice and it was all around a good expirence... Therefore I decided just to stay where I am :- ) Even though dustin and I are appart I still stick where I am... not digging deeper... not climbing out....
There you go... that is my story
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Posted: Sun Jan 14, 2007 8:02 pm
Lol, I also remeber this very intresting thing...
When I was 6 years old, my parents and I were walking around a mall, and as we walked by I seen this extreamly gorgeouse woman, though Im not bi or lesbian, I still think to this day, as her being very beutiful, her hair was a burnt orange reddish color and pass her hips, wavy and had beutiful celtic ties in them with colored hair extenders and black feathers,
her makeup had a tattooish celtic snake going down from her right eye and down her cheek and had deep crimson lipstick and deep purple eye shadow, she wore a beutiful red corset and a long velvet black skirt and these awesome boots that kinda look like the nightmare boots, only without the curls at the tips.
Ever since then, I've always been facinated by the gothic look, even before my life went to hell, ever since then I always thought of her as a Dark Fallen Angel. sweatdrop
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Posted: Mon Jan 15, 2007 2:55 am
I have always enjoyed the things many view as 'dark'. Since I was a young child I was fascinated by the forests around my home. The way the mists would creep out from the roots of the trees, crawling and clawing at the ground as it rolled silently across the fields towards my home like some oppressive, untamed beast.
But I also am majorly influenced by art and music! In a spiritual way and to some extend my asthetic may be influenced to a degree.
I suppose my personal life may have some greater influence than I would imagine (or like to admit).
Also I think the novels and other books I read as a child through to now had a huge impact. Books like The Lord of The Rings, Bram Stokers Dracula, alot of Anne Rice books, are amoungst those which most will know of.
Also historical figures such as Elizabeth Bathory, Vlad the Impaler, Attila the Hun. There tales of sorrow and of bloody carnage awoke an energy deep within myself. Not empathy, but an understanding of their reasoning perhaps...
Anyway, I suppose most of what I have said is going to sound cliche...But there it is! lol!
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