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Morgan had barely made it back to her apartment, everything hurt and the whole world was spinning as she flopped onto her bed. The sad little mattress on the floor barely managed to cushion her fall and she hissed as pain radiated through her wrist and gut. Everything still felt like it was too much after that fight, every sound, light, and movement felt like it was cranked up to the max as she lay there staring blankly ahead at nothing.

It would be so easy to just pop another starseed and heal back up but she couldn’t do it, not with how she still felt after the fight. That b***h had really gotten her good and things had gotten too messed up, it wasn’t the same easy and quick way she handled other senshi. It had been a shitshow and now she felt like she had flown too close to the sun.

The slow drip of the leak in the ceiling continued on, unaffected by her writhing and trying to toss things to stop the sound. It was drilling into her skull along with everything else, she needed to get up and turn off the lights. She needed to probably go to a hospital for her wrist or at least get someone in the Negaverse to look at it but she couldn’t do any of it. That dizziness was hitting her as everything felt unbearably loud or bright and it left her dry heaving over the side of her mattress.

Everything was a mess here and even if she powered back up she’d still be a mess which sucked. Being Beatrix was how she dealt with her civilian life being so shitty and now that was a bit of a mess right now too. Eventually, something came up onto the floor and she rolled back over to face away from it once everything settled back down. Part of her wanted to text someone about things but she didn’t want anyone seeing her place and she really didn’t have any friends either. What would Chrys and Croco think if they saw her like this, the thought of it made her feel even worse as she stripped out of her tattered clothes to try and get comfortable. Cursing as she bumped her wrist the wrong way, she wanted to just scream as loud as she could.

This stupid apartment with its leaky roof and shitty appliances that only worked when they wanted to, it made her so mad sometimes but it was the only thing she could afford after she’d dropped out of college. Even after joining up with the Negaverse, she was still only just able to afford it without having to work as much. It was nice, being able to do what she was doing as Beatrix. She wanted to do it more often, wanted to feel more sure of what she was doing and to hear that she was doing a good job.

Now all she could think about was how she wanted another starseed, wanted to get that feeling that everything was right again. She had a few in her subspace, at least she thought she did but was it worth it? It had gone south so fast against that senshi and she still felt so prickly after the amped-up feeling had crashed. It didn’t feel good, didn’t just fade like normal, it lingered and she’d lost track of how many starseeds she’d had. There’d been a warning, one she may or may not have skipped over, about them being dangerous but she’d needed the boost here and there to keep doing what she needed to do for the Negaverse.

But now it felt wrong, felt sickening, as she lay there and wanted to scream at how loud the dripping was and how bright the lights were. It was all too much and she didn’t want to feel like this anymore, didn’t know if taking another starseed would help or not. This wasn’t something she knew anything about as she’d rushed into it like she’d done with everything else.

Pulling her phone out of her bra, she tried scrolling through it to keep her mind off of things but her fingers were starting to shake and it made it hard to click on icons. She would have thrown it with how frustrated she felt at it but it was expensive and there was no way she could get it fixed if it broke so she finally decided to get up and do something about the light and sound if she could. The light was easy, just a flick of the switch and sweet blessed darkness fell over everything. The dripping… that wasn’t something she could do a lot about so she just threw a few crumpled-up dirty clothes to soak up the sound and water.

Looking at herself in the mirror, she focused on the tattoo on her thigh. Even when she was just Morgan, the cryptid of 7/11, she had a bit of Dullahan with her along for the ride. It made her feel a bit better, knowing there was something of them on both sides of things. Tracing her tattoo with her fingers, she thought about that armor that had appeared over her at the end of the fight. It had looked and felt just like the armor that usually helped hold people for her when she fought and starseeded them. It helped, and made her feel a bit better about things but was it enough? She needed to figure out a way to get stronger, a way to keep from getting hurt. No more starseeds tonight, maybe not for a bit, because even the thought of them was too much right now.

Laying back down after avoiding the puddle of mess on the floor, she wrapped herself up as best she could while trying not to hurt her wrist more. She still wanted to scream, wanted to power up and just… do something to get back at that senshi that had hurt her but, there was no way she could do anything like this and it sucked. Maybe she could sleep it off and figure something out before she had to work at the 7/11 again.

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