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I had word that a good friend that I had from elementary school was murdered in 2009. She was sixteen.
At that time I left the school district for a smaller local charter school, we kinda lost contact. She also moved to a different state as well, her dad had a job offer and it was really good.
Anyway things went south for her after moving, parents divorced cause her dad got abusive/controlling with her mother and her mom got in a relationship with a girl. .-.
Her dad lost all sanity and walked into her great grandmothers house and shot her, her sister, mother, and great grandmother.
Her little brother managed to get away to the neighbors to call the cops.
Her dad was put on death row and died two years later.

I found out by a post on Facebooka few weeks ago that a mutual friend made.
I just found all of this out.

Like I remember doing her hair at recess, and her calling me "a hippie" because I wore tye dye shirts and jeans a lot.

I also remember saying something mean to her in fifth grade that I never got to apologize for and I feel terrible about it.

I just cant believe that this happened to her. I even googled it and found the police reports and court statements. It had me fairly depressed for awhile...

I'm still not knowing how to really "human" right now. I guess I'm still in that shock phase...

I'm so, so sorry to hear about your loss, and your friend's family's loss. Especially in such a senseless way...

Please though, don't let your guilt eat you up too much. It was a rather long time ago, and more than likely she got over it. God will also forgive you, if you find it too hard to let go of, then just take it to him. It's something I had to learn myself - the mistakes of the past are in the past, and God's grace is deep enough and wide enough to cover them.

I shall pray that God will be with you and comfort you and your friend's family.