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Hey, so... thanks.

I know not everyone voted for me, and honestly if I hadn't voted for myself, along with a couple of other interesting votes, I wouldn't even be able to say this, but... seriously, thank you.

When I came back late last year from another one of my short recharge breaks, I was in a state of emotional turmoil. I turned to the only thing that had remained constant in my life, which was this community. I've been here through all the ups and downs, and for the most part, except when prodded for my opinion on things, I tend to keep to myself and just keep my head in the game and the stories I am trying to write with the rest of you.

I always end up back here, doing what I consider to be one of the only things I do exceptionally well, and last year I looked at my list of accomplishments and, let's be honest here folks, it's not a massive list. My title reigns list is roughly 25% as long as any other "legend" in our community, and despite how long I've been here, I have never won any of these really big or important OOC awards either. I always just rolled with the punches and kept my head down. But this last year... I tried. And I tried really ******** hard. I wanted to be recognized. I just wanted... I wanted someone in my life to ******** appreciate me. I was in such a bad spot and so depressed about my life, that any kind of recognition or appreciation was all I wanted.

On top of that, I've been here for ten years. I've watched this community grow, fail, and be the worst and best it's ever been, and I wanted to give back in a real way for the first time since I was capable of actually running a successful guild. Those days may be behind me, but I tried to bring new things, new ideas, and Matt and I continue to want to do FRS. It's just a timing issue, I swear. But I wanted to make this community strong again, and give people something to enjoy other than just their own work. I wanted to work with people I haven't worked with. I wanted to... be the very best.

Now, like I said, I know a lot of you didn't vote for me. Technically a vast majority of you didn't. And I had some extremely tough competition this year. Apparently, my promos are no match for a short comedic Freakshow skit, even now. And Landry? Landry's been... one of the best RPers for the past few years, beating him in his last year wasn't going to be an easy feat. On top of that I had to compete with Matt and MATT was on a ******** MISSION. Our storyline brought him and I to a new level. That's the kind of quality I wanted out of all my storylines. I had awesome matches with everyone who went up against me this year, with few exceptions. (Gallant, I want a real contest with you that doesn't end in us not posting fast enough some day.) Hiro? I don't care what any of you say about him, he was the most improved rper this year, and my storyline with him and Cartwright was extremely fun.

Now that the year is over and I look at my name in several of these places, I know that... my hard work for the past ten years hasn't been for nothing. But it's not enough for me. I'm going to try even harder next year, to make all those votes under other names change their minds. I want to have awesome stories with people I've never worked with, like Three and Dion and Salem. I want to work with people I haven't matched up against in a long time like Cyrus. I am going to push myself to bring more and more content in the form of FFA cards, FRS, matches, promos, and other things.

So thank you. Thank you for giving me the chance to redeem and bad reputations I might have had, in regards to my activity. Thank you for giving me the chance to... really flex my muscles and... for just being friends when I needed them. I hope we all stay around for as long as we can.

*Ahem*

I have a question, King...

I've never worked much with King, but I'm really considering doing it.

BBW's a fun place to consider. wink