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 Posted: Wed Sep 04, 2013 8:06 pm
I feel like s**t. I used to watch surgeries online without any queasiness whatsoever. For ******** sake I handled wet muscle tissue 3 months ago.
Now I can't even read stories from nurses.
I think it began after I was told a story by a man whose daughter sucked out her eyeball with a vacuum, and ended up being blind forever.
That wasn't awful, just the emotion was.
However directly after I saw a relatively rare photo of the Boston Bombing up close and personal. Considering I was around Boston when it happened, the photo sent shivers through my spine.
Then I looked closer - and saw bone protruding from skin and stabbing others. I saw adults running on children to get away. Blood, as always, littered the streets like puddles after the heaviest of storms.
2 minutes after witnessing this photo I began dry heaving for about a half hour, then was fine afterwards.
Even just writing about this I feel queasy and am just off fainting (I'm pushing through it).
I am not sensitive to witnessing blood. I am not sensitive to handling blood.
You guys aren't doctors - but please dear god give me a great way to desensitize myself again.
TLDR; got sensitive over a photo. Now I can't handle photos/stories of gore. Not even pimples. Real-life is a completely different story.
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Posted: Wed Sep 04, 2013 10:42 pm
How many of the photos and whatnot were you able to go, "I know where that is?" and make that true connection to the chaos involved before the Boston Bombing photo? Not many I imagine. The reason that story about the man's daughter got its way into you was due to how easy you could relate to the words written, yes?
You've bridged a connection that was previously not there, and that's a good thing. However, as for how to stop getting sickened, you may want to realize what the issue is and by realize I mean to make the issue real.
It's an emotional connection you've made, they're triggering humanity in you and that's a good thing. This humanity is going "They're hurt and I can't help, oh god the consequences" and spiraling to a point that makes you sick, it's a break in sanity. Once you can come to a point where you control that reaction you'll be okay. It might not be a smooth transition, but you'll be okay.
I don't get the pimple thing, maybe it's just thinking about all the gross things that go into the creation of a pimple but whatever.
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Posted: Thu Sep 05, 2013 12:28 am
Pavilo How many of the photos and whatnot were you able to go, "I know where that is?" and make that true connection to the chaos involved before the Boston Bombing photo? Not many I imagine. The reason that story about the man's daughter got its way into you was due to how easy you could relate to the words written, yes? You've bridged a connection that was previously not there, and that's a good thing. However, as for how to stop getting sickened, you may want to realize what the issue is and by realize I mean to make the issue real. It's an emotional connection you've made, they're triggering humanity in you and that's a good thing. This humanity is going "They're hurt and I can't help, oh god the consequences" and spiraling to a point that makes you sick, it's a break in sanity. Once you can come to a point where you control that reaction you'll be okay. It might not be a smooth transition, but you'll be okay. I don't get the pimple thing, maybe it's just thinking about all the gross things that go into the creation of a pimple but whatever. RIght now I'm on r/popping to get SOME sense knocked back into me. The thing is I've always been the one in my family to help with the medical stuff. Whether it be cleaning large wounds, popping back bones into place, or just removing nails or rubber or large splinters from skin, I've always had a strong gut and have been taught how to do some of those things by trained professionals. I'm certified now, officially, to do quite a few things. It scares me that one day I may need to be called for help again and I won't have the gut to help. I understand the emotion...I get it, being emotional is good, but I used to be able to separate the 2. I hope within the next month I'll get back to normal.
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Posted: Thu Sep 05, 2013 11:12 am
Scarletgreen Pavilo How many of the photos and whatnot were you able to go, "I know where that is?" and make that true connection to the chaos involved before the Boston Bombing photo? Not many I imagine. The reason that story about the man's daughter got its way into you was due to how easy you could relate to the words written, yes? You've bridged a connection that was previously not there, and that's a good thing. However, as for how to stop getting sickened, you may want to realize what the issue is and by realize I mean to make the issue real. It's an emotional connection you've made, they're triggering humanity in you and that's a good thing. This humanity is going "They're hurt and I can't help, oh god the consequences" and spiraling to a point that makes you sick, it's a break in sanity. Once you can come to a point where you control that reaction you'll be okay. It might not be a smooth transition, but you'll be okay. I don't get the pimple thing, maybe it's just thinking about all the gross things that go into the creation of a pimple but whatever. RIght now I'm on r/popping to get SOME sense knocked back into me. The thing is I've always been the one in my family to help with the medical stuff. Whether it be cleaning large wounds, popping back bones into place, or just removing nails or rubber or large splinters from skin, I've always had a strong gut and have been taught how to do some of those things by trained professionals. I'm certified now, officially, to do quite a few things. It scares me that one day I may need to be called for help again and I won't have the gut to help. I understand the emotion...I get it, being emotional is good, but I used to be able to separate the 2. I hope within the next month I'll get back to normal. Exactly, but think of it. You've been fine with it all in person and still happen to be, is that correct? I am quite confident that it's a matter of bridging a connection to the victims of those injuries while not having the ability to come in and help them. You will be fine when you are called on, you've done great in the past and will do even better in the future.
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Posted: Thu Sep 05, 2013 12:02 pm
Pavilo Scarletgreen Pavilo How many of the photos and whatnot were you able to go, "I know where that is?" and make that true connection to the chaos involved before the Boston Bombing photo? Not many I imagine. The reason that story about the man's daughter got its way into you was due to how easy you could relate to the words written, yes? You've bridged a connection that was previously not there, and that's a good thing. However, as for how to stop getting sickened, you may want to realize what the issue is and by realize I mean to make the issue real. It's an emotional connection you've made, they're triggering humanity in you and that's a good thing. This humanity is going "They're hurt and I can't help, oh god the consequences" and spiraling to a point that makes you sick, it's a break in sanity. Once you can come to a point where you control that reaction you'll be okay. It might not be a smooth transition, but you'll be okay. I don't get the pimple thing, maybe it's just thinking about all the gross things that go into the creation of a pimple but whatever. RIght now I'm on r/popping to get SOME sense knocked back into me. The thing is I've always been the one in my family to help with the medical stuff. Whether it be cleaning large wounds, popping back bones into place, or just removing nails or rubber or large splinters from skin, I've always had a strong gut and have been taught how to do some of those things by trained professionals. I'm certified now, officially, to do quite a few things. It scares me that one day I may need to be called for help again and I won't have the gut to help. I understand the emotion...I get it, being emotional is good, but I used to be able to separate the 2. I hope within the next month I'll get back to normal. Exactly, but think of it. You've been fine with it all in person and still happen to be, is that correct? I am quite confident that it's a matter of bridging a connection to the victims of those injuries while not having the ability to come in and help them. You will be fine when you are called on, you've done great in the past and will do even better in the future. Those do come as words of comfort. Thanks Pav. Just a little shaken from my new found sensitivity. Will have to fix before halloween.
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Posted: Thu Sep 05, 2013 4:13 pm
Scarletgreen Pavilo Scarletgreen Pavilo How many of the photos and whatnot were you able to go, "I know where that is?" and make that true connection to the chaos involved before the Boston Bombing photo? Not many I imagine. The reason that story about the man's daughter got its way into you was due to how easy you could relate to the words written, yes? You've bridged a connection that was previously not there, and that's a good thing. However, as for how to stop getting sickened, you may want to realize what the issue is and by realize I mean to make the issue real. It's an emotional connection you've made, they're triggering humanity in you and that's a good thing. This humanity is going "They're hurt and I can't help, oh god the consequences" and spiraling to a point that makes you sick, it's a break in sanity. Once you can come to a point where you control that reaction you'll be okay. It might not be a smooth transition, but you'll be okay. I don't get the pimple thing, maybe it's just thinking about all the gross things that go into the creation of a pimple but whatever. RIght now I'm on r/popping to get SOME sense knocked back into me. The thing is I've always been the one in my family to help with the medical stuff. Whether it be cleaning large wounds, popping back bones into place, or just removing nails or rubber or large splinters from skin, I've always had a strong gut and have been taught how to do some of those things by trained professionals. I'm certified now, officially, to do quite a few things. It scares me that one day I may need to be called for help again and I won't have the gut to help. I understand the emotion...I get it, being emotional is good, but I used to be able to separate the 2. I hope within the next month I'll get back to normal. Exactly, but think of it. You've been fine with it all in person and still happen to be, is that correct? I am quite confident that it's a matter of bridging a connection to the victims of those injuries while not having the ability to come in and help them. You will be fine when you are called on, you've done great in the past and will do even better in the future. Those do come as words of comfort. Thanks Pav. Just a little shaken from my new found sensitivity. Will have to fix before halloween. You're very welcome, I'd wish you luck but that won't be necessary.
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