I feel dead... 
-------------------- Warning: This whole story might seem a little weird but just stay with me here.
Well, not to long ago if any of you were on, Gaia had a malfunction and kicked everyone off the site for a few minutes. Everyone thought it was hackers.
I had kept giving my life to God and kept giving and giving but I didn't feel him connecting to me.
I kept doing sinful things and I kept doing them until that day.
A few days before that, I gave my life to God.... Again.
I hadn't done any very sinful things since then so I felt happy, but on the day the site crashed I was going to do more sinful things, even on Gaia.
Then all of a sudden, the site kicked me off.
Now, please don't think badly of me but after 10 minutes of trying to get on my account, I started to cry. I have a lot of friends on here and I love them all dearly and I couldn't bear to lose all that I had.
So I was crying and praying that God that the hacker (or so I thought) would get off my account. I prayed and said I wouldn't do any more of the sinful things I had been doing, I would stop right then and there.
I kept praying and trying until 15 minutes after the crash, it worked.
My account, my avi, my money was all there.
I was just staring at the computer for a few minutes.
I realized what I had told God, about staying with him and stopping my sins. And I realized, that I was God's now.
I had promised that I wouldn't do those things. I promised. Usually when I promise to God, I blow it off and say, "Hey, he is God, he will forgive me!"
But this time I did not.
I knew I had promised and I stopped. I had been posting some bad things on Gaia and such and I went back and fixed it. I stopped.
The first thing I said after the crash, the first thing I said in my new christian life was, "God has a terrible sense of humor." And I started laughing.
From then on, I have been completely God's.
I haven't done or felt an urge to do all the things I wanted to.
But ever since the crash, I have had this haunting feeling that Gaia crashing wasn't a mistake.
I may be wrong, but I feel that God did that so I would finally be his.
Maybe I am wrong, but that seems like a pretty good explanation for it all.
--------------------Well, not to long ago if any of you were on, Gaia had a malfunction and kicked everyone off the site for a few minutes. Everyone thought it was hackers.
I had kept giving my life to God and kept giving and giving but I didn't feel him connecting to me.
I kept doing sinful things and I kept doing them until that day.
A few days before that, I gave my life to God.... Again.
I hadn't done any very sinful things since then so I felt happy, but on the day the site crashed I was going to do more sinful things, even on Gaia.
Then all of a sudden, the site kicked me off.
Now, please don't think badly of me but after 10 minutes of trying to get on my account, I started to cry. I have a lot of friends on here and I love them all dearly and I couldn't bear to lose all that I had.
So I was crying and praying that God that the hacker (or so I thought) would get off my account. I prayed and said I wouldn't do any more of the sinful things I had been doing, I would stop right then and there.
I kept praying and trying until 15 minutes after the crash, it worked.
My account, my avi, my money was all there.
I was just staring at the computer for a few minutes.
I realized what I had told God, about staying with him and stopping my sins. And I realized, that I was God's now.
I had promised that I wouldn't do those things. I promised. Usually when I promise to God, I blow it off and say, "Hey, he is God, he will forgive me!"
But this time I did not.
I knew I had promised and I stopped. I had been posting some bad things on Gaia and such and I went back and fixed it. I stopped.
The first thing I said after the crash, the first thing I said in my new christian life was, "God has a terrible sense of humor." And I started laughing.
From then on, I have been completely God's.
I haven't done or felt an urge to do all the things I wanted to.
But ever since the crash, I have had this haunting feeling that Gaia crashing wasn't a mistake.
I may be wrong, but I feel that God did that so I would finally be his.
Maybe I am wrong, but that seems like a pretty good explanation for it all.
...Too bad it isn't real. 
