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I once heard of a woman
Who killed herself for a man
He died, too
And all was of a tragedy
However, I am no Juliet
You have proved yourself to be no
Romeo
For we were never meant to
Have death do us
Part.

For, as people are starving in the streets
And people are dying everywhere
You sit and laugh without care for the
World is your oyster
You think yourself to be a beautified pearl
And if a few grains of sand, paled in comparison to you,
Die, then what of it?
And you think me a pearl that is your match
And you deserve me
So I must be yours whether I enjoy it or not.

However, must I not choose my own fate?
Or am I restricted to that which you desire?
Have I no free will
Have you taken it all away from me?
Or can I still cling to it?
Can I still make my own choices
And let you scowl and whine piteously
And tell me that you love me
And shouldn't I feel guilty for making you
Feel sad?

I used to let you guilt me into anything
And before that, there was no need
For guilt
For I delighted in our stolen kisses
And your beautiful gifts
But then you lost my trust
There were one too many "I'm staying at work late"
Or "I'm out with the boys" excuses
And I slowly began to feel
As if you were lying to me again and again.

Now we live in a quiet lie
Pretending that nothing is wrong
While you go out to your mistresses and I twist
The wedding ring around my finger and wonder
How we began this life and when, slowly
We both fell out of love
And started looking around for different love
The kind that you pretend is real, then you go home
And act like it never happened
Or isn't that what we're doing right now?

Thanks so much. I love my fox. And thanks for complimenting my poetry. I usually don't write about that kind of stuff...I'm more of a working-out-marriage kind of poet, but it just came to me.