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 Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:23 am
Well, this is ******** weird to just put out there for everyone to see, but whatever. I consider a lot of you pretty good friends still, even though I'm barely around anymore, and this is something I thought you should know.
About a month ago, I got raped.
I found out on Friday that I'm pregnant.
I called my mom first, pretty much hysterical, but she talked me through it and I calmed down. Then I told my closest friends. I pretty much have nothing but support from everyone, which is good.
I...can't go through with an abortion. And I think that adoption would be really hard to do, for multiple reasons. Sooo...I'm pretty sure I'm keeping it. And no I won't love the baby any less. It's not its fault how it was conceived, and it's not like it was the worst way ever, either. It could have been so so so so much worse. It'll be REALLY different, but..that doesn't always have to be a bad thing. I'm ******** terrified, but I'm also a lot of other things, too.
Most importantly, I'm okay.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:25 am
If you say you're ok I'm going to go ahead and believe you.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:27 am
I really am. It's still completely surprising and like I said, I'm totally scared out of my mind, but really, all things considered, I am okay.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:28 am
D:
That is like...seriously one of my worst fears.
I love you. <3 Call me if you need anything.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:28 am
oh my god mary I am so ******** sorry on the one hand, but this just sounds wrong to say. If I could support you in any way, I would.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:29 am
I think scared out of your mind is normal for any pregnancy, especially in any situation in which the father is not going to be around. But you've got Cait.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:30 am
You already know I'm behind you 100%, but I figured it would probably be good if you guys knew I'm sticking around. Initially, I pushed for my ideas and those of my parents, but having had the weekend to think about what I want to, I am fully confident in my wanting to finish my education and help raise this child. Mary needs me right now, and I will never turn my back on her.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:31 am
Thank you. I feel ******** stupid that I didn't go to Planned Parenthood the day after it happened, but...I just wanted it to go away and it was one of those "lol that won't happen to me" moments.
I mean I'm sorry too, but if I really do keep this baby I don't think I will regret it at all.
And it's scary, but with having all this support from close friends and my parents, I'll know I'll get all the help I'll need. So that helps me be less scared.
And yes. Yes I do have Cait. :]
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:42 am
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:44 am
You already knew! x3
But ilu. :} heart
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:51 am
Well, it's your decision.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:57 am
Good luck. :]
It's sad how a lot of people don't see things the way you do in these situations. I don't think you'll really care about what I have to say, but I'm proud of you and I wish you the best.
<3
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 11:59 am
I wish you all the best with this, it's a tough choice. If there just was something I could do to help you with it, and if there is, just tell me.
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 12:03 pm
Any clues as to what your kid might look like?
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Posted: Tue Apr 20, 2010 12:06 pm
Oh and have a "Wish her my love" from Tiffany.
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