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I've been participating in a few more rituals lately (partially due to my finding of an interesting group) and have been feeling more connections and energy at those events. Otherwise, though, my life has been so hectic with school and life issues that I haven't been able to touch any personal magical activity, despite how much it would likely help.

Well sometimes when its dark and I am alone in my room I feel this effect like I am fanning out and I can feel the world around me. Its pretty much the only place now... I feel like their is this volcano under my house of light connecting me with the earths core. I can't feel anything anywhere else... otherwise I feel dead accept when I'm in bed

Outside of that. I had this strange feeling... maybe two weeks ago like someone was there while I was reading a book. Then my blanket bent towards me. and back away from me like it waved.

Positioning of blanket. My knee's were up a little bit apart and the blanket was drapped over them and I was sitting up. The blanket was strait and then it bent about 3-4 inches towards me in a U shape towards my face and then it straitened all without me moving. It straitened slowly so I was just stairing at this blanket righting itself without any help.

That wasn't very serene but it is something

Sounds nifty! Would you like to share some of the details of these rituals? Also, I understand how you feel with the whole “chaos of life” thing going on.

I love long walks with no real intended destination. For me, I most feel connected to the “universe” when I’m just walking between classes. The weather can be quite inspiring; one day, there was some really heavy snow and you felt like you really were in a completely different place, almost in a different world, just from walking around outside. Cool evenings when it’s dark and there are a few lamps lit here and there are pretty inspiring, in the more quiet sections of campus and even on the busier “Main Street”. I suppose I’m really just getting to love the place I’ve started to live in, and I think it’s good that I can feel something like that.

That it was. Thanks for helping to keep the discussion alive. I have to encourage you to seize the day, though…feeling dead everywhere except in bed? sad

I’ve really been thinking hard about my relationships with others lately, about how I can improve myself to have more meaningful conversations with people and build lasting bonds with others. I’m really glad to hear this sort of thing from someone else, and I’d love to hear you talk more about it if you so desire.

gnomes are pretty chill guys.

Well... I had a bit of a wake up call

I was listening to music and as I approached my class I was like I Really need to get this music to stop playing before I enter the room.

Well I was feeling very lazy... and I just thought about it but I didn't want to turn the Ipod off or fiddle around with it because it would take to long and I was in a hurry so the music stopped. I forgot all about it because it did what I wanted it to do.

As I sat down in class... I realized I couldn't remember pressing any buttons or making it stop in any way. I didn't do anything... I just really wanted it to be quiet so that my teacher wouldn't think I was ******** around and listening to music and thats why I was late.

After class... I go to use my Ipod but it won't make any noise. None at all...

Well it turns out folks that somehow my head phones stopped working. Talk about unintended cnsequences of will. Nothing seems wrong with them... they just don't work any more.

I don't know about making me feel serene and whatnot, but once I was really upset over some work-related stuff while I was driving and my car starts ******** up. Car repair city, however this did not involve electrical work if I remember right (see below).

I only think of this because there's a weird problem going on with my car right now and I can't remember my emotional state the last time I drove it. Sometimes when I'm upset, electrical things will act up. Lights will flicker or not work at all; things like that. Currently, my car will not start. The engine won't fire. This points to an electrical problem. The battery is fine, the starter works, the fuel pump works. However, through some shade-tree mechanic work (ether in the intake ninja ), I've determined that there simply is no spark in the combustion chambers. So I'm going to replace the spark plugs and their wires. Hopefully that will fix the problem and I don't have to replace the other (more expensive) electrical components like the alternator, coil pack, etc. I just drove the car two days ago, so it seems odd to me that something would fail overnight.

Something interesting about that though is that my step-father and I were poking around, trying to figure it out, and we started tinkering in the fuse box under the hood. We removed a fuse to inspect it, then put it back where it belonged, and then *nothing* works. No power whatsoever. So this naturally got me a little upset. We started taking all the fuses out and inspecting them, thinking maybe one was blown. We didn't find any blown fuses and put them back in their respective places. I try the ignition again and all my systems work fine again, for some reason, but of course the engine still won't fire.

It is worth noting that my car not running today, while a minor inconvenience, probably tipped me off to the problem before I actually *needed* my car to run. So take that as you will.

I'm more interested in learning how to consciously control when I mess s**t up with my mind.

This is kind of an addendum to my last post, but I was thinking about this earlier. I happened to discover the malfunction in my car when I was trying to go meet a friend for a day of outdoor adventure (or just sitting on our asses at the campsite, whatever). I discovered this problem at a time when it wasn't very consequential for me to have car trouble; I didn't have any traveling plans for this weekend. As such, I had plenty of time to identify and fix the problem (it was the fuel filter, in case anyone cares).

That said, the fix was cheap and easy, and I ended up discovering and replacing some bad spark plugs in the process which, if I hadn't found them, could have given me trouble later. Sometimes I get these moments when the Universe seems to be looking out for me in convenient ways. It would have sucked to have had major plans and then discover that my car was combustion impaired. It was kind of like a nudge saying "You need to do some preventative maintenance, and to remind you here is a minor inconvenience that is relatively cheap to fix."

The whole thing also gave me a sense of accomplishment, as I get a sense of pride in being able to fix things.