It turns out my best friend is ditching me for a girl. Now I'm all for other people procreating and whatnot but he could at least tell me. He has guts to go out with a girl but doesn't have any guts to tell me he'll be taking a few days off the week to spend time with her. He just leaves me in the dark until I see it myself.
That's the next thing ... all dumb kids don't know how to prioritize and balance their time. No, it's all or nothing with these guys. He's blown me off for the last week, not even saying a word to me. I've found him walking with this girl, and I say "Hey!" And he just keeps on walking like he never knew me. I know he's quite the ladies man but seriously, the minute he finds a girl he alienates everyone around him... and then he starts from scratch!
I mean, is this what life as a guy is? Trying to get laid? It's all it seems like to me, all of these guys in my school are horny perv's who can't keep their **** in thier pants! (See title, this is just for prood of relevance) Am I the only sane person that isn't alive entirely for sex or drugs?
That's the other thing, drugs. It turns out that nearly everyone I knew from my original school does chewing tobbacco and more. It makes me really sad that these bright, young, innocent kids have turned into these... things driven by sex and drugs.
I've just kind of had a big impact on my faith in humanity...
This is just like in Elementary School. I'm always the silver trumpet or flute or whatever that saying is. What I mean is, I'm always the flute that only get's played when the good flute breaks. It's always that way for me. I hope that adults will be a bit better at playing both flutes, or I am going to be a really alone person...
I just needed this, I may have a social disorder, but I know this is wrong! This is why I DECIDED not to have any friends in grade 7 or 8, because everyone just blew me off for someone better. I always felt betrayed and just decided "Why have friends when they're never your friend?" Everyone else seems fine with this setup, but I'm not. I guess I'm at that stage again where I have to question friendship and the value it has at the present moment.
To me, friendship just seems to be letdowns and betrayals. I know I need to open up more, but why open up if I'm just giving and never recieving? It's what it seems like to me. The only friends that are half decent are females, and even then some judge me on my disability and talk in a condescending way.
I'm just really angry... I needed this...
And if you don't like reading (Torri) Here's a nice picture to tickle your heart! It has nothing to do with my rant, although she chirps at a rate faster than her own heartbeat...
It's my bird when she laid her 4th egg, her acting all motherly and aggressive and protective!
See the little white thing she's sitting on? That's her egg! And yes, that's how she looks at you when she wants to bite your finger off.
