"A Ghost No More"
i fear to look inside of me and see the thing that's become of me;
black and roiling, oozing rage and deadly things, diseasing my heart;
i thought i hid it well, encased it in steel words of pretty lyric and rhyme;
i'm lying to me again you see to keep the demon at bay, but free;
it bleeds out upon these words you write to ease your pain and mirror mine;
how can i call me friend and be this wretched thing that fester like a...;
no, i won't confess it, i won't let it be recognized as something so real;
it pounds against me as a wave on deadly rock, to lash at my love;
it's turned me, made me a cynical pessimistic crone who's joy is to wallow;
like the swine that comforted Prodigal in his time of selfishness, i writhe;
take my hand, take it now! pull me from this cesspool of spite and loss;
a ghost to me no more will be, please pull me from myself and thus;
cleanse me of myself and all the doubt that spreads within this hopeless shell.
~END~
i fear to look inside of me and see the thing that's become of me;
black and roiling, oozing rage and deadly things, diseasing my heart;
i thought i hid it well, encased it in steel words of pretty lyric and rhyme;
i'm lying to me again you see to keep the demon at bay, but free;
it bleeds out upon these words you write to ease your pain and mirror mine;
how can i call me friend and be this wretched thing that fester like a...;
no, i won't confess it, i won't let it be recognized as something so real;
it pounds against me as a wave on deadly rock, to lash at my love;
it's turned me, made me a cynical pessimistic crone who's joy is to wallow;
like the swine that comforted Prodigal in his time of selfishness, i writhe;
take my hand, take it now! pull me from this cesspool of spite and loss;
a ghost to me no more will be, please pull me from myself and thus;
cleanse me of myself and all the doubt that spreads within this hopeless shell.
~END~
yes...i realize this has no rhyme...maybe no rythm either. but it is what it is....the dealing with of the demons within. yeah...no caps...i do that. at least this time i gave u some punctuation. please tell me what you think. ninja
