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I know that most of you have probably heard these kind of stories before... and most of you say to just get over it. But, you see my boyfriend is in college, this is his first year.(I'm a senior in high school by the way) He started about two weeks ago.. he and I have been dating for a year and a half. He said he loves me.. and I know he does... we even wanted to be together and get married. But tell me if this sounds right please...

Yesterday he said he needed time. He wanted space to just have fun in college.. and i understand that part. But he also said... that he wants to be with me. And that he knows we will wind up together. Because he doesn't think I'll find someone else. He said he isn't going to go and have sex with random girls while he has his space and he also says he isn't going to have a girlfriend.. but still. I love him and care about him and just thinking about him kissing another girl feels like betrayal. and what hurts me more is that he thinks I"m always going to be around... He wants me but he's leaving me... and even though this break up is "temporary" it isn't fair to me...

my questions are:

1: does this seem right on his half?
2: does this seem right on my half?
3: does this seem right at all?
4: Have you ever had someone you loved and then they go and do something like this?

I mean my point is.. if he loved me wouldn't he want to be with me? Wouldn't he not want to be with other girls? Even though he says he wouldn't have sex or have a g/f he could still... and because of this I feel betrayed.

I know that the best advice comes within yourself... but i still would like to hear opinions. Right now.. it hurts me and I'm trying to be strong. I really really am. so don't think I'm one of those week girls who complain all the time about losing their boyfriend. It's just to me I guess my ex now... feels like he is my only love. And I fear that the love is gone now, because of this new decision. Opinions would really help me now.. thank you.

Perhaps.. I mean what it is also is that it's long distance too.. and I know he is a trustworthy person.. as in he isn't the guy to cheat on a girl. Like last night when we decided this.. I told him flat out that he had to choose to either take me or have freedom with out me. and he kept saying i don't know.. and i was like well do you want me and he said yes.. but he wants to have a break from the relationship. I mean it really hurts me.. At that point of the conversation I started breakind down into tears.. and even though I was trying to be strong they just came without warning. and Then he said well look it will only be temporary if you'll take me back... I just kept crying. He kept on trying to make me happy.. he told me that he loves me and wants me and wants us to wind up together in the end. I just kept crying and crying.. and this morning.. I was online and he came online and i said hi and he said hello and then i asked him how his first night of freedom was... because that's what he called our temporary breakup (the time of freedom and no restrictions), I mean I know that it was wrong.. but it hurts cause i still have feelings for him strong feelings... and anyway when i asked him how is first night of freedom was he was like it was fine. I told him then that i wasn't happy about the decision and then he said.. look im hungry I need to eat breakfast I dont' feel like hearing this from you now. Then he logged off..

I dont' know what to believe... I'm just sad and I feel betrayed and lost.

it hurts to say this.. but your right. and I mean if he does want me back.. he will have a lot of fixing up to do and he will have to do a hell of a lot to get me back.

yes and haha im listening to that mariah carey song.. shake it off.. explains my situation completely.. it just randomly came on the radio.

yeppers smile thanks that actually helped some... i mean if i spend time with my friends.. do more things i like.. like reading... painting... jewlery making (i sell jewlery.. so smile ) I think I'll get better.. i just have to occupy myself.

*hugs* I'm so sorry...

To quote one of my favourite songs: ...each broken heart eventually mends...

I hope you're doing okay...

yeah i have been doing alright... I mean I'm not crying my eyes out.. I feel hurt still but it's only the beginning of the healing process.

Day two from the break up:

I'm actually doing alright.. I start my last year of high school tomorrow.. and you know I kinda just want to have fun with my life... not like do stupid stuff.. but just do stuff i like to do... because i have to admit being in that relationship made me find a lot about myself. And also he and I decided to be friends.. I can tell he's confused with his life.. but he really doesn't know what he lost.. it's a pity.. but one day he'll see.