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I think it is safe to say that we have all experienced this. We get a new Anime DVD or some movie or even Manga that has an overall TG plot, or even just a few TG moments in it.

And at the end, we feel sad. Or, at least I did. I got the second DVD of Kashimashi, and it felt kinda like someone was crushing my heart because I knew it would never happen to me (Being nearly killed by a crash landing space ship AND being turned into a girl by an Alien)

It sort of made me wonder why I buy this stuff if it always hurts my heart to watch it.

Some of the sadness at the end is just that whole disappointment that it's over. But yeah, for me there's a lot of envy; sometimes it's so bad I wonder why I don't hate the character for it. Hazumu kinda got everything; a body more suited to her personality, a second chance with the girl of her dreams, and none of the identity crisis. The only downside is the perverted dad, but Hazumu doesn't even seem to notice.

Well, nether am I. Maybe I feel bad because (Spoiler) it looked like 4 separate people were in love with Hazumu at the same time(Spoiler ends) And maybe that makes me jealous

Well... over at animesuki there was a discussion that (spoilerish)one of them was actually in love with Tomari.
Wish I could find it again though.

Well, I don't really follow manga or anime, but I do keep up on TG stuff online (webcomics, art, stories).

"Tantalized" and "frustrated" are words I'd be more likely to use when describing my state of mind when reading TG than "sad" or "crushed."

You ever want something so much that you find yourself feeling like, "if I just wished for this a a little bit harder, it would come true?" I end up like that a lot when I fantasize about being a girl or wish that Bill Hicks wasn't dead.

I *think* for most of the guys here it's mostly an appealing fantasy more than an actual desire. Tho I could be wrong about that. Blanchard and Bailey would call it autogynophilia.

For me, it's not so much wanting to become a girl... it's a feeling that I already am a girl inside, and this having a boy-body is wrong.

Kinda the opposite of lot of TG stories in a way; they get turned into girls on the outside and (often) become one on the inside. I'm already one on the inside, and it's pushing me to become it on the outside.
(Bailey would still say it's autogynophilia for me, due to my age and my not being exclusively attracted to guys. And while I admit there is an element of that I still think he's mostly full of crap.)



I've come close to suicide and bordered on developing a dissociative disorder because of it.

No worries... even at my worst, I still get angry enough at the people who'd like to see me gone that I'll choose to live just to spite them, which keeps me from crossing the line long enough to find other reasons to keep going.

I'm sorry to hear how dear this is for you. I hope you find a solution to your problem. Fate can be so curl.