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On a more serious note-@Duct-Tape-Chan: It doesn't matter how much money your mother spends on this...endeavour... The success and failure all depends on you. You DO have the right to refuse to cooperate with the counselor. It doesn't matter what treats or bribes they attempt to use, that's all there is to it.

Also, I have serious doubts that any respectable counselor would do anything that risks your mental health in the long run. Out of EVERY "turned straight" case I've seen where the victim is "turned straight", it's nothing more than brain-washing (with the victim is doing nothing more than lying to themselves every day of their lives). Which often, I might add, unravels latter down the line. Leading to sever mental, physical, and social health complications when everything falls apart as the person reverts back to their natural sexuality.

Yeah, that was my plan ;_; until my mother 'shoved me out of the closet by force' i guess you could say.

And no, Yondara-san, I will NEVER cooperate with anyone trying to brainwash me. D: I shall unleash a can of DOOM UPON THEIR FAMILY. Or, you know, maybe just protest.. or something....

A group of friends and I are planning to definately participate in the Day of Silence this year. At school people know me as an avid gay-rights supporter, though, not a lesbian. Just warming them up to that side so they won't be too shocked if or when they ever find out. But yeah. the 26th will be an interesting day. Think I should tell my mom the reason i won't be talking that day, or make up some excuse?

Oh boy, folks, an update.

My mom really did it yesterday. That was the last straw.

If you look in the writing/art subforum you'll see that i've been working on a manga. Shojou-ai, of course. I always keep it in my purse(coughcough, bodybag, cough). And, guess what. It turns out my mother went through my purse, found my art book, and read it all. I guess you could say we had a little 'talk', with her doing most of the yelling, me doing most of the glaring. She hardly gave me a chance to speak. I was unbelievably pissed at her. So I told her that since she pissed me off and is unreasonable, and since she thinks my art talent is such a gift to be "wasted" on so-called crap like my manga, I quit. I quit any art that isn't for school, and even that will be half-assed work. She didn't believe me, but I'll show her what her stupid closed-minded-ness and nosy-ness has done. And the Day of Silence will be a breeze, since I'm never talking to her again anyways, at least for a while. She makes me SO SICK. Literally. I actually almost threw up a few times yesterday. If we didn't have family over, I would've jumped out my window and gotten some fresh air.. for several hours. Thankfully she works all week, and I have this week off to go on the computer, read, whatever. Hooray spring break. School is stressful, sure, but at least that'll be a break from my mom as well.

So, if any moderators feel my now worthless manga thread in the writing/art subforum is just taking up space, feel free to delete it, or, something.

I agree.

I understand you're upset, but, giving up doesn't seem like a proper solution...

But, What the hell do I know? Maybe i'm wrong...

I'm just sure there's got to be a better way to prove your point.

I still can't believe anyone would do something like that. I'm so sorry. -hugs-

The poor woman sounds terrified. Why does she think it's wrong? Why does she want you fixed? Is she religious? She needs to find it in herself to have a rational talk with you, and also to read the articles in SUPPORT of homosexuality and say why they're wrong. If she can't find anything wrong with the articles in support of it then she's missing the point. You can argue for hours and hours that the newly implemented neighbourhood watch is the reason your house hasn't been robbed, or you can look at the fact that your house hasn't been robbed before they put it into effect. To understand an argument she must see both sides.

I think she's a stupid woman, but she's obviously just afraid because her beliefs are being challenged and its easier for her to believe she can change you than for her to change her beliefs (it's true: it takes about 15 years to completely change most people's beliefs on certain basic elements of their belief system).

If anything, explain to her that counselling is probably not going to help and most likely make things work. Perhaps you can promise to try it for her if all else fails. Tell her if it doesn't work (which it won't) after so many visits that you won't do it anymore. It'll probably be hell to put up with it but it might make a point to your mother.

You sound like you're stubborn (I am too, don't take this negatively) like your mother and the only thing that will end this is one person admitting they won't fight anymore (and even if she's wrong, she doesn't seem to want to give up). I don't think that was the best recommendation, but if you run out of ideas or perhaps a home and don't have anywhere to go, it might be worth a shot.

PS: About the art thing, I'd say take some paint and paint some nice shoujo-ai all over your bedroom walls if she really does something horrible. It'd be a nice touch to do it the night before she ships you off to counselling if you end up being forced into it.

Also, do you have your art online? I'm not really a fan of slash type works but it'd be cool to check out your talent.