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 Posted: Mon Sep 13, 2004 5:34 pm
thnx all, I have about 10 or 12 other journal entries, but not all of them are quite as endearing.
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Posted: Mon Sep 13, 2004 11:02 pm
If you are feeling adventurous why don't you post another compelling entry and let us be the judge of that.
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Posted: Tue Sep 14, 2004 1:27 pm
I wrote this during my first semester of college after highschool. . .
I'm lonely and I don't know why. maybe its the new environment, maybe I still miss Amber. whatever it is, I wish it would go away. it just might an idle mind because I only seem to notice it when I have nothing to think about, or choose to think about nothing. for some reason I remember the pool in florida. I remember wanting to go in, to go down and not come up. I remember looking down into the calm water and thinking what it would be like, would there be a tunnel or a path? it didn't matter much because she was gone. the fact that she was gone wasn't what made me want to go over the edge. it was the fact that we loved each other and I drove her away because I go greedy. appearantly her love wasn't enough. I wanted more.
if I remember correctly, I had planned on writing more, but for some reason stopped there. . .
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Posted: Tue Sep 14, 2004 6:52 pm
wow, your journal entries are so deep..You can practically see everything crystal clear when you are describing it. We feel what you were feeling...Is this something that's a closed chapter in your life now?
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Posted: Tue Sep 14, 2004 7:18 pm
Tears run down my face.
My heart burns without passion.
My fists sting from hitting the wall in frustration.
I miss you and need you.
I wish I could change, is that it?
I'd run forever to get to you.
I'd fight an army to save you.
I'd do anything just to see you smile.
I love you and wish to be there for you.
Tears run down my face.
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Posted: Tue Sep 14, 2004 7:26 pm
MangaJoe Tears run down my face. My heart burns without passion. My fists sting from hitting the wall in frustration. I miss you and need you. I wish I could change, is that it? I'd run forever to get to you. I'd fight an army to save you. I'd do anything just to see you smile. I love you and wish to be there for you. Tears run down my face. thats beautiful.. crying
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Posted: Tue Sep 14, 2004 7:28 pm
so for once i wrote one down.. dunno if its all that great though.. just as depressing a bunch of the others.. Alone[color=white] from the day i was capable of coherent thought..
i was taught to love..
now the time has come for me to love my own..
yet i have not found my own..
my own does not exhist?
im losing hope..
clawing at my own heart looking for answers to the questions inside my lonelyness..
beating myself up inside, telling myself i could have done better..
bleeding my emotions from tears of my heart..
i lash out at my surroundings harmlessly to drain my rage..
to be left alone with only my sorrow..
i live, wait, and drift through this exhistance i call life..
shutting myself off from all the outside that could irritate and reopen the scar upon my heart..
i continue to wait and watch thoes i know pass me by and leave me behind..
goodbye..
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 10:27 am
Kinsai-chan MangaJoe Tears run down my face. My heart burns without passion. My fists sting from hitting the wall in frustration. I miss you and need you. I wish I could change, is that it? I'd run forever to get to you. I'd fight an army to save you. I'd do anything just to see you smile. I love you and wish to be there for you. Tears run down my face. thats beautiful.. crying
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 10:30 am
Kinsai-chan so for once i wrote one down.. dunno if its all that great though.. just as depressing a bunch of the others.. Alone[color=white] from the day i was capable of coherent thought..
i was taught to love..
now the time has come for me to love my own..
yet i have not found my own..
my own does not exhist?
im losing hope..
clawing at my own heart looking for answers to the questions inside my lonelyness..
beating myself up inside, telling myself i could have done better..
bleeding my emotions from tears of my heart..
i lash out at my surroundings harmlessly to drain my rage..
to be left alone with only my sorrow..
i live, wait, and drift through this exhistance i call life..
shutting myself off from all the outside that could irritate and reopen the scar upon my heart..
i continue to wait and watch thoes i know pass me by and leave me behind..
goodbye..
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 2:27 pm
My friend Eileen wrote this.. it's on her website, Mystic Demon. Eileen Lies Of ApperanceThe girl you call ugly Has beauty inside But her outer appearance Shows the stress of your lies She takes in these words Her body shows it so She would be beautiful on the ouside But you won't give her the chance to show You judge at the moment No second to pass That all of a sudden you take your words back That instant, that moment It makes you cry Because the girl that is beautiful The one you told lies Is laying in her coffin Effected bye your lies
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 2:28 pm
Skad_for_Life My friend Eileen wrote this.. it's on her website, Mystic Demon. Eileen Lies Of ApperanceThe girl you call ugly Has beauty inside But her outer appearance Shows the stress of your lies She takes in these words Her body shows it so She would be beautiful on the ouside But you won't give her the chance to show You judge at the moment No second to pass That all of a sudden you take your words back That instant, that moment It makes you cry Because the girl that is beautiful The one you told lies Is laying in her coffin Effected bye your lies Sweet
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 7:08 pm
Homans, this was actually written by me. I thought it up in the car, and I had to run inside really quick and type it up. I suck at poetry.
Whenever it gets cold outside
and the wind nips at my nose
I remember those nights we spent together
those times you held me close.
Instead paying attention during school
I spent the whole time reminiscing
About when we watched the superbowl
And ended up just kissing.
But soon you became like a drug to me
I found you necessary
And all the feelings I felt for you
They began to scare me.
I'd never felt that way before
Love had never been that real
I don't know for sure if it was really love
That's just the way I feel.
And then you called me crazy
And I told you to go to hell
And that's where our relationship ended
Oh -********- well.
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 7:18 pm
kristinarr Homans, this was actually written by me. I thought it up in the car, and I had to run inside really quick and type it up. I suck at poetry.
Whenever it gets cold outside
and the wind nips at my nose
I remember those nights we spent together
those times you held me close.
Instead paying attention during school
I spent the whole time reminiscing
About when we watched the superbowl
And ended up just kissing.
But soon you became like a drug to me
I found you necessary
And all the feelings I felt for you
They began to scare me.
I'd never felt that way before
Love had never been that real
I don't know for sure if it was really love
That's just the way I feel.
And then you called me crazy
And I told you to go to hell
And that's where our relationship ended
Oh -********- well.
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 7:24 pm
t0paz kristinarr Homans, this was actually written by me. I thought it up in the car, and I had to run inside really quick and type it up. I suck at poetry.
Whenever it gets cold outside
and the wind nips at my nose
I remember those nights we spent together
those times you held me close.
Instead paying attention during school
I spent the whole time reminiscing
About when we watched the superbowl
And ended up just kissing.
But soon you became like a drug to me
I found you necessary
And all the feelings I felt for you
They began to scare me.
I'd never felt that way before
Love had never been that real
I don't know for sure if it was really love
That's just the way I feel.
And then you called me crazy
And I told you to go to hell
And that's where our relationship ended
Oh -********- well.
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Posted: Wed Sep 15, 2004 7:26 pm
kristinarr t0paz kristinarr Homans, this was actually written by me. I thought it up in the car, and I had to run inside really quick and type it up. I suck at poetry.
Whenever it gets cold outside
and the wind nips at my nose
I remember those nights we spent together
those times you held me close.
Instead paying attention during school
I spent the whole time reminiscing
About when we watched the superbowl
And ended up just kissing.
But soon you became like a drug to me
I found you necessary
And all the feelings I felt for you
They began to scare me.
I'd never felt that way before
Love had never been that real
I don't know for sure if it was really love
That's just the way I feel.
And then you called me crazy
And I told you to go to hell
And that's where our relationship ended
Oh -********- well.
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