Welcome to Gaia! ::

There's definitely a pathologicalization of normal reactions and behaviors that's prevalent both online and in the psychiatric sphere. Burnout is a completely expected response to an overwhelming, undending news cycle and don't get me started about the average American workplace. I work in a place (when I'm not on leave, I mean) that I consider to be better than most workplaces I've been in and I still burned out dramatically, which exacerbated some of my existing physical illnesses.

EMDR is an amazing tool and I hope to find a skilled therapist who can use it and fit me into their schedule some day.

The other day, I said that I have no friends that live close by. I do live with my partner. I also have some work colleagues that might be friends? (I'm autistic, so I gave a hard time telling what's friendly and what's just social niceties.) But since I'm not at work right now, I don't see them regularly. Yesterday, one came over for a visit and I showed her the first several episodes of Apothecary Diaries. It was so nice to hang out with someone. I'm pretty sure (?) I should start counting her as a friend.

This weekend, my mom is visiting and we're going to a concert. Mom lives roughly 500 miles away, and neither of us can usually afford to visit each other due to money and work constraints. Most of the time, this is good for me, as she can be suffocating at times, but NGL, it would have been nice during this month of leave if I could have had her help. All the same, glad she'll be here and that we get to do something potentially fun.

Thanks for your well wishes! Now that I'm back on the right dose of meds and I've had some positive socialization, I'm feeling a little better today. It is honestly amazing how much of an impact mental health can have on physical health.

got the day at home today. its 1pm and i got all the housework and enough walking to to go ahead and hop in shower. server merge bs in a handful of hours. got mom some pottin soil and pots set up so she's playing in the dirt on the porch repotting some little maters. lookin fwd to getting onto pc clean and done and waiting on the chaos lol.

happy tuesday ya'll!

Ayooo spamalot peeps

Aww Neon glad you got some socialising in, if yah both enjoyed I think it's safe to consider them a pal

It's all about striking balance, if you use too much energy on your profession you don't have the energy to do the work you need to do in order to look after youself.
I used to work 55 hr weeks during covid and I was miserable, mental health on the ground and a bunch of physical issues appeared.
Learned a good lesson from that though, no job is worth even a fraction of your health and wellbeing if it affects it.
Get a lower contract or a phased return if you do wanna go back, you can always see if there are compomises you can make.

Glad things have started to look up! May the progress continue unendingly

Wtf Rydia they are making you do all of that prep work you did all over again essentially? Surprised people aren't ddosing the server til they got things restored, people spend yeaaaarrsss on those things
Hope you got some help doing that at least, sounds like a mountain to scale.
Hope you enjoyed some sim time once the work is over!

I've been kept pretty busy on my leave so far, wish I had more to report but it's boring errand type stuff.
Setting time aside properly tomorrow to chill some and enjoy this leave.
Hope yah had a fab Tuesday! heart

Aww that stinks that less transferred over, such a problem because in the world of algorithms and ai people don't actively think to check up on things themselves anymore

Ik you said you do it to yourself but given the fair few years we have of game devs/publishers doing a process I call "enshittening" where they just make things worse for no reason out of the blue.
After volition went under Epic did a bunch of updates to the SR series that genuinely broke the games. Used to run them at 60fps on ultra no problem, now it crashes all the time and barely pulls 30fps.

Finally caved and bought the YuGiOh Early days collection on steam cause it's 40% off, now I got all my childhood yugioh games in one place which is actually kinda neat.
Gonna waste my evening playing that I think, looking forward to tomorrow when I have the house to myself and no guests, I want this leave to feel like leave lol.

Have a fab one!

morning aaron have a blast on YuGiOh! and hihi neon! hope ya days going aight!

oh i dont mind that not that many xferred over. i can understand not wanting the hassle. that's why i got the guild cookin on both servers so that everyones comfy. if the one side becomes ghost town i can move more of our stuff over for us. but we have enough to split into 2 and be fine.

gotta get mom up to cardio and run up to the other house to check mail and some more errands. gotta get tooth looked at tomorrow. its high on that one molar so they are gonna consult. if i have enough gas to get up there tomorrow. if not it'll have to wait till next week. gogogo.

happy thursday!

Another day another slay!
Still chore heavy and having beef with neighbours who keep leaving trash outside our house.
Turns out it's actually quite difficult to get those stink bombs in the little glass vials now, wanted to throw one on the ground outside their open window lol.

That's fair Ryd better to have it not need it than to need it and not have it
Hopefully the dentist goes alright for you, I gotta do the same at the start of next month, had the same problem wisdom tooth for years but it's just gotta come out now I can't take it lol.

Hope the visit goes well Neon! Focus on what you did do, there's no point stressing over past possibilities, moments already passed.
You did get some things done when you feel like doing nothing, that alone is a win!

I gotta go back to standing guard in the front room of my place now, I'm not joking about the trash dumping

Have a fab Thursday! heart

off to the errands again! hopefully figure out my molar filling! happy friday ya'll!

Dw we just keep calmly placing their trash closer to their house, they'll get the message at some point.
Not gonna rant and rave because that's what they want, only way to hurt a masochist is to refuse to try and hurt them xp

Aww the 3ds story of seasons is so good, I tend to just have my phone at hand with the game wiki open in case I need it.
I keep getting that with the vintage gems in the YGO early days collection, they just expect you to remember things said once in dialogue with no journal or log.
So I basically always have the wiki for DM1 1998 open on my phone if I'm playing it.
Like it just expects you to experiment with fusion and remember what the combinations are, my brain just aint that tack sharp anymore.
Have fun with it, I honestly think the 3ds ones are easily the best in the series

Hey Neon glad the visits going good!
Have fun at the concert, what you gonna go see?
Nice of her to help yah, it's easier to maintain a new standard if you don't exhaust yourself getting there

Working tomorrow because I only had 5 days annual leave, then I'm off for 2 more.
Been a lot of catching up on all the things I've ignored again, cold weather means washing all the heavy stuff from last winter ready for another xmas.
It's all on the heated dryer now so at least it will be luxurious to put on right off a heated rack
Got back into working out finally and am beautifully sore today, the achy you did good kind, not the goddamn I pulled something kind.

Got the afternoon free now, probably jump into more YGO Early Days, been obsessed with it since buying it.
Have a fun Saturday!