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 Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 3:39 pm
I think that's probably the best option for me right now. It's really started to ******** me up for the worse. Hell, it even caused me to have my own girlfriend hate my guts, and break up with me. ********, I wish I had the money for some professional help...
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 7:00 pm
Can you see if there's some help program through your school? A lot of school have them.
When you say 'girlfriend', do you mean Rokoko?
I feel really bad. I wish I could do something to help, but as is, I really can't...
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Posted: Thu Jan 25, 2007 8:17 pm
Yes, her. And do not feel bad. I will find a way to make it up to her, and get back in her good graces. She means too much, for me to let go of, like this, and I won't stop, until I'm absolutely certain she won't take me in any way. And I WILL get over these problems, if it takes everything I have. I don't want to keep hurting the people I cherish like this, and I want to keep them with me, not push them away.
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 8:46 am
Koiyuki Faith Burns Being Happy and Follow Your Heart by Andrew Matthews, The Physics of Consciousness by Evan Harris Walker, and Why Am I Afraid To Tell You Who I Am? by John Powell are good books. I also recommend anything by Joe Vitale @ http://www.mrfire.com ; he deals with marketing and motivation and has great tips on how to make money and be successful. biggrin Ahh, has it aided you, in any way? Yes, indeed it has! Reading Andrew Matthews' books especially has really inspired me as an individual who has more power and control over myself and my life than I thought I did. Very empowering and educational books. Sounds like you're having some troubles, Yuki. Those books I mentioned will really help you out. Here's some advice that will also help: It may seem silly, but look in the mirror everyday and tell yourself that you're a strong, capable woman who deserves love and happiness. Remind yourself everyday, even if you don't believe it now; the mind believes what it hears, and if you're diligent, there will be results. I know it's tough, but try to find a way to support yourself financially so you can get out of there. Find a roommate and move into an apartment and go from there. I don't know where you live, but there are usually jobs that pay well and also cover school. There's a place about a 45-minute drive from where I live that pays $10 an hour, gives health, eye, and dental benefits, AND pays for school for only part-time work. It's third-shift stocking but still a great deal. I hope you find your way and that things become clear.
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 9:19 am
Pssst, Faith, Koi's a guy. ninja
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 12:09 pm
Faith Burns Koiyuki Faith Burns Being Happy and Follow Your Heart by Andrew Matthews, The Physics of Consciousness by Evan Harris Walker, and Why Am I Afraid To Tell You Who I Am? by John Powell are good books. I also recommend anything by Joe Vitale @ http://www.mrfire.com ; he deals with marketing and motivation and has great tips on how to make money and be successful. biggrin Ahh, has it aided you, in any way? Yes, indeed it has! Reading Andrew Matthews' books especially has really inspired me as an individual who has more power and control over myself and my life than I thought I did. Very empowering and educational books. Sounds like you're having some troubles, Yuki. Those books I mentioned will really help you out. Here's some advice that will also help: It may seem silly, but look in the mirror everyday and tell yourself that you're a strong, capable woman who deserves love and happiness. Remind yourself everyday, even if you don't believe it now; the mind believes what it hears, and if you're diligent, there will be results. I know it's tough, but try to find a way to support yourself financially so you can get out of there. Find a roommate and move into an apartment and go from there. I don't know where you live, but there are usually jobs that pay well and also cover school. There's a place about a 45-minute drive from where I live that pays $10 an hour, gives health, eye, and dental benefits, AND pays for school for only part-time work. It's third-shift stocking but still a great deal. I hope you find your way and that things become clear. Thank you, Faith. I've tried it, and for some reason, it does help. I'm actually about to send her a letter, that hopefully shows how sorry I am, and just how much she means to me.
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 7:42 pm
Tailos-chan Pssst, Faith, Koi's a guy. ninja Anyway... Good luck Koi. biggrin
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 8:07 pm
Faith Burns Tailos-chan Pssst, Faith, Koi's a guy. ninja Anyway... Good luck Koi. biggrin Thank you, Faith. I have spoken to her, and have began patching the relationship, and regaining what I had lost.
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Posted: Fri Jan 26, 2007 10:36 pm
Yesterday, the freakiest thing happened to me. I was on my hour lunch, and had planned to meet my husband downtown at this tasty family-run Italian Deli, when I turned into a public parking garage to find a space so I could walk over to the deli. There was a cop car sitting in the garage, and my heart turned to ice. Ever notice how whenever you see a cop, you automatically start wondering if you're doing anything wrong. You avert your gaze, start driving like you've just picked up the manual, and start freaking out...well that's me, and even if it's silly, that's just how I react.
Anyway, so I start driving really slowly and hoping the cop will just leave the parking garage, but it starts turning and coming up slowly behind me.
I'm thinking to myself "s**t s**t s**t! I MUST HAVE BEEN GOING TOO FAST WHEN I TURNED INTO THE GARAGE WHY OH WHY ME?!"
And yet, the cop did not turn on it's lights. So I found a parking spot, and surprisingly, the cop went past me and went around the parking lot again....and then again.....
I got out of my car and started walking in the opposite direction of the cop car just in case he was going to try and get me for walking incorrectly in a parking garage or something stupid (I start wondering if there really are laws like that, just so they can get you on them to get more money in fines).
All of a sudden, I hear the the cop car stop and the engine turn off. I turned around and the cop had blocked the middle of the parking garage, jumped out of the car and opened the back, bringing out a dog of some kind.
Before you know it, there's shouts, and this guy runs by back behind where I was with something, and suddenly there are sirens from all sides and the guy with the dog attacks the guy, just as a cop on a bike and a cop on a motorcycle cruise up.
It was freaking scary. But just as I had gotten out of the garage, I saw Marcus RUNNING full tilt over to the garage with worry all over his face. I guess he was worried that something bad had happened to me.
I guess lately, there have been many assault related crimes towards women in this town. It scares me. I really wish that concealed-carry laws were in effect. I would definately want to carry a Derringer, at the very least.
No one's going to rape me or beat me up if I shoot their kneecap out.
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Posted: Sat Jan 27, 2007 10:54 am
Koiyuki Thank you, Faith. I have spoken to her, and have began patching the relationship, and regaining what I had lost. That's good.
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Posted: Sat Jan 27, 2007 1:51 pm
chikushou Koiyuki Thank you, Faith. I have spoken to her, and have began patching the relationship, and regaining what I had lost. That's good. I would hope. Is it a good sign, when she says, "I doubt I can stay mad at you"?
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Posted: Sun Jan 28, 2007 9:56 am
Koiyuki chikushou Koiyuki Thank you, Faith. I have spoken to her, and have began patching the relationship, and regaining what I had lost. That's good. I would hope. Is it a good sign, when she says, "I doubt I can stay mad at you"? I think so. In my experience, things that threaten to wreck a relationship, if the couple can overcome them, makes that relationship all the stronger, even if things seem to take a step backwards at first. Completely off topic, but...I feel like I've completely fallen in love with this guy at my school, but I really don't think there's a chance of anything happening. If I were in a different section of one of the classes I'm in now, I would have him as a teacher. But, I feel like, if every time I did something right, he was there, giving me that smile and saying those words that I can't even remember now, I could do anything. I can't even tell how it makes me feel.
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Posted: Sun Jan 28, 2007 10:28 am
Hmm, well have you considered writing out your feelings in a letter, then taking the appropriate action with the letter?
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Posted: Sun Jan 28, 2007 10:34 am
Koiyuki Hmm, well have you considered writing out your feelings in a letter, then taking the appropriate action with the letter? What? redface I couldn't do that. I mean, I guess I don't really know him that well, and I just met him last year and stuff. And I really, really don't think anything will come of it, other than utter embarrassment.
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Posted: Sun Jan 28, 2007 2:52 pm
When I said 'appropriate action', notice I didn't say, 'send it'. This tells me you want to show him, but are afraid of the consequences. I would suggest thinking this over long and hard. Unrequited love, is the kind that eats at you days, months, and in some cases years after the act was left undone, always wondering, 'what if?'
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