Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023| Reminder 2024]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 811 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 138 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.5%	[ 152 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.2%	[ 117 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.1%	[ 280 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.7%	[ 270 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 169 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	3.0%	[ 82 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	27.3%	[ 759 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2778 ]

[shiny spoink]

my brain needs to shut the ******** up,
and stop thinking about stupid s**t.

pull yourself together.
i have the skills to not be this bad,
so i need to work on them.

so far im doing a really good job.
though my brain keeps wanting to shut down,
ive been able to not dissociate.
no self harm, nothing.

i can continue, i just need to work hard.
but not overdo it.

[Hellodies]

I feel very lost all of the sudden, and it's just clawing at me.
At least the thoughts are dulled out, but I can't feel like I may have some sort of episode later on...

[Decaying Harlot]

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Biting all the skin of my lips, yeahhh. Christmas. woohoo

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[shiny spoink]

didnt even think about allergy pills.
bet they wont even affect me,
since ive been taking 300mg trazodone & 5mg ambien combined.
lol

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dls,
i wish you guys would cheer up...
i dont like seeing everyone so upset.

[Jemnu]

So...I told my extended family about my engagement...

Surprisingly....not one bad thing was said.
There was shock, sure; I could see it in their faces,
but they were happy for me..
I was really, really taken aback.
Like..idk, I was just not expecting them to congratulate me. ; v;

I really hope they truly are happy for me and not just saying so, but it felt genuine to me.

I'm happy tonight. > u <

[Decaying Harlot]

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Oh, I'm ruining one of your many Christmas Eve's because I'm reaching out to feel better?
My bad, I'm sorry. I'll censor the suicidal thoughts for you, because that totally makes things better.
I might as well never speak to anyone the next couple weeks.

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[smile into the chaos]

My mother needs to accept the fact that I'm grown up now and might want to make my own holiday plans. confused
I told her the other day that we weren't going to be there for dinner tomorrow. Either she forgot, or she's asking again trying to change my mind.

[shiny spoink]

I wish I weren't in such a bad mood.
I wish I could sleep.

[Decaying Harlot]

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The depressed don't get help on holidays. lol

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[deer dears]

the love we found~
the love we foooooound
******** them for cutting the full song tho.
;-;
so cruel.

[spicy grandpa]

I'm so drunk merry Xmas y'all babies

[shiny spoink]

im going to go take a shower,
and then eat something.

my head wont stop being a d**k.
please stop.
i heard its bad to force yourself not to dissociate.
it just hurts your mind even more.

but i cant give in.
i especially dont want to switch personalities.
******** no.

im taking 2 klonopin tonight.
please let me sleep.


i wonder what i should watch while i eat.