Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023| Reminder 2024]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 811 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 138 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.5%	[ 152 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.2%	[ 117 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.1%	[ 280 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.7%	[ 270 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 169 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	3.0%	[ 82 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	27.3%	[ 759 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2778 ]

[I2ose Quartz]

I hope the fire you started consumes you.

[[NPC] Leon]

LEMONed LULLABY

One message from each of them and I'm suddenly more level and more willing to accept that I didn't ******** anything up; someone had to speak and break the cycle.
If it's not me, then I'll at least be an example for the younger ones to stand up and speak; that life isn't what your first 10 years are and that there is a home and a helping hand for them here.

And if in the meantime I do a little living of my own, that's a-okay.
It's okay to be good enough. It's okay to be good at what you love.

It's okay to be kick a** ******** awesome at bass, it's okay to perform in front of that audience, to let go and not feel guilty as ******** because I am successful.

They can't see s**t past the Harlequin makeup, anyway. What the ******** do they care?

They don't give a ******** how broken and ugly I am, because they're probably there to get away from their own s**t or too drunk to care. Gotta be kind to everyone.

********, I can't even see their faces when those house lights and s**t are up. I don't know why I'm always so ******** nervous to play songs that I've played hundreds of times over in some piece of s**t bar. they're just misshapen dark blobs of human that happen to be able to make noise and swear; ********.
I'm still getting cash in hand to be there.

it's okay to be good at things I am good at.
I will kill this upcoming show.

Hell, it's even okay to welcome the thought of two permanent Daddies for the first time in ******** years.
Uncie W is coming home first, Daddy is already on his way.


Wine, Blue Dream, Pee-wee's Playhouse, The Wolfpac all warm and cozy, presents; dinner.
And the Zoo in the morning.

Go ******** yourself, Gaia. It's gonna be a good Christmas.

Putting rocks in your snowballs is not permitted, as it can cause serious damage to the rock. And to the person you are throwing it at.

[I2ose Quartz]

I've been skirting along that fine line that divides love and hate.
I keep leaning more towards hate the longer this goes on.
But there's a lesson behind all this; what goes around comes around.
You just made the mistake of doing it, yet again.
It'll fall apart - and this time? I won't be there to pick up the pieces for you.

[Jemnu]

Just hope my dad doesn't ruin this one with his bad mood.
rolleyes
What a baby.

[shiny spoink]

I'm waiting for the klonopin to kick in.
My parents still have my medications in their room.
Gaah. If I can't sleep ill cry.
Literally.
I'm not used to this. I've never had issues with not being able to sleep.
I'm getting really upset.

I don't want to be grumpy tomorrow.

[I2ose Quartz]

You're nothing but a ghost of what I once loved.

[La Cantarella]

I ******** hate people who put out vague statuses on facebook.
Either come out and tell everyone or don't bother.
You're hinting at something serious and yet you put a little heart emoticon on the end like you're happy about it and then you don't even bother commenting?
What the ******** is wrong with you?
So no, I won't ask. Because yes, maybe I am a little jealous.

Because you at least know it wasn't a failure on your part. At least you have some inkling of what went wrong.
Because you have such a constant outpouring of support when I have had absolutely nothing of the sort.
No one reacts at all. No one says anything to me. Because no one really gives a s**t.
What makes you so goddamn special?
So ******** you.
I'm not gonna play along.

[shiny spoink]

Pills are my friend

[shiny spoink]

I'm not even supposed to be taking the klonopin, ambien or vyvanse.
He discontinued all of those.
I need all of them.
Sigh.

I don't get why he discontinued them.
I need to call him. Friday I will.
I'm without a therapist and psychiatrist.
That's really bad.

[shiny spoink]

It's starting to kick in.
My heartbeat is slowing down.
Now if only I could sleep.
Also I feel lazy for sleeping so early.

I don't get why right when I lay down I'm no longer tired.
Will this ever end?

[cosmosredshift7]

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i'm still incredibly drunk
holy ********
i'm def gonna join this dating site though...
i just want someone to be with...
i'm sick of being alone
it's just really painful

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[I2ose Quartz]

This is your fault. You did this.
You made your bed, now ********
lay in it you piece of s**t.

[cosmosredshift7]

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i'm incredibly intoxicated right now
holy ********

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[La Cantarella]

It's not fair.
It's not fair.
It's not ******** fair.

At least you have one healthy child. I have none at all.
My own ******** body killed them before they even drew a breath.
So ******** you.
******** attention whore, startling everyone like that and giving no reasons.
******** you...