Dirty Little Secrets [Announcement 11/8/2023| Reminder 2024]

Before I go, I've got to know:

Is that what you mean to say?	29.2%	[ 811 ]
Before I rise to my defense,	5.0%	[ 138 ]
Before I speak in hurt or fear,	5.5%	[ 152 ]
Before I build that wall of words,	4.2%	[ 117 ]
Tell me: did I really hear?	10.1%	[ 280 ]
Words are windows, or they're walls,	9.7%	[ 270 ]
They sentence us, or set us free.	6.1%	[ 169 ]
When I speak and when I hear,	3.0%	[ 82 ]
Let the love light shine through me.	27.3%	[ 759 ]
Total Votes:			[ 2778 ]

[Hopelessly Yours Alabama]

Would she hold me?
If she knew my shame.

I forgot how much I adore Bullet for my valentine.

[Hopelessly Yours Alabama]

You're the reason things have to change.

God, A Day To Remember really is like the best band ever, imo.

[Epitaff]

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raaaaaaage

[` B e l o v e d]

I feel a small bit better today. My cough is not better though, and I still cannot taste food or really smell anything at all. Why the hell do I know so many Leo's? Jesus...

[Gypsosaurus]

I hope I can manage to live in a southern suburb somewhere.
Like, Southgate or something.
That way I'd be closer to Toledo.
Closer to you.

[The_Final_Princess]

Why won't you talk to me?
Why won't you just lay it out on the line for me so that I can understand?
Are you afraid?
Are you too much of a 'man'?
Or are you just doing it to spite me?

You need me.
Well why don't you tell me that?
Why can't you just text me and say
"I need you. come see me."
And I'll come running.
You say things like
"Oh yeah, dya wanna go out today?"
and make it sound like your not bothered when you are.
But how am I supposed to know the difference?
I can't read your mind.
You need to tell me what you need and when you need it
Otherwise, I'm clutching at straws and that just gets us both pissed off.

The thing is, we've been through this before.
I always tell you, I'm clueless, I suck at body language,
I don't know what you want unless you tell me
and yet, you carry on talking in riddles
and getting mad when I don't know what you want from me.

[Epitaff]

You see DLS..
theres this girl.
Ive known her for quite some time, and, Im stuck on her.
Ive ******** up royally. and all I want is for the chance to go back, to change things.
I know that this had to be brought up eventually. but, I dont know.
I had hoped for a little more time to just enjoy things before we had this conversation
you see, Im the kind that likes to flirt around, to have an easy, open heart, and to surround myself with the things I like.
girls, guys, whatever.
for the first time though.. ive got this one girl. and, shes the only one I want.
Not a single other.
just her.
and, Im invested in this girl, emotionally.
ive bled for her, wept for her, ive done things for her I wouldnt do for my own mother.
And I feel like right now, im about to lose her.
and it scares the living hell out of me.
For the first time, Ive got that sort of gut feeling
that things could work. that for the first time, theres a real shot at a future with this girl.
im comfortable with her, i smile almost constantly around her.
i just..
I dont know.

Id be gutted if things fell apart.

But, anyway, Shes cut me deeply, at points in our past.
and, these wounds are hindering my ability to trust her..

Shes worth fighting for though.
every single second of these last two years.
every good day, was worth all the bad days.
and now, there are so many good days.
so, so many.
this is a huccup, it has to be.
----

I got distracted writing this for two hours, and now the issue has been solved, sort of.....
so yeah. herpderp.

[` B e l o v e d]

He seems to impatient with me sometimes and it really upsets me.

[tiff4nny]

I can't wait to move.
new life, new everything.
Kind of scared though.
cliques and all ugh

[Necropath]

Sometimes I sit back and wonder how people manage to function with such self-destructive habits and thought processes.

[` B e l o v e d]

I'm such a ******** stalker.

[Deojack]

Feeling really tired right now.
I really don't want to clean my room. Really don't.

[Epitaff]

I think that really, if she did like, go out of her way to come up here, and we ended up having a blast. and all that jazz. Id feel a lot better about all of that s**t. I mean, that hug will make or break the relationship.
but if it makes it, then Ill be able to look past everything...
--

Im signing off DLS.

[The_Final_Princess]

Please just listen to what I'm saying.
I've had a s**t week and things haven't gone well for me.
But I've been trying my ******** best to make everyone happy.

You.
Mum.
Nan.
Kerry.
Dad.
Adam.
Simon.
Kieran.
Beth.

Just to name a few of the people who have needed me this week.
How the ******** am i supposed to manage all those people
asking me for help, asking me if i'll do this that and the other?

I do so much for you all the time
So, I put other people in front of you this time and what do i get?
Pure criticism.
Is it because I do so much for you that you no longer even notice when I'm being nice?
Every single time we go out, I'm so nice to you and I do so much for you.
Helping you with work when I should be doing my own.
Playing games when I don't want to.
Eating food I don't like when I'm not even hungry.
Staying up late when I'm so tired and just want to sleep.

Maybe I should just stop doing all those things
Maybe I should stop pretending to be the perfect girlfriend and just be myself.
Maybe then I'd know if you really loved me.
Maybe then I'd be happy too.

in the wise words of whitney...
I'd rather be alone, than unhappy.

[Ogamdo]

Necropath

Sometimes I sit back and wonder how people I manage to function with such self-destructive habits and thought processes.